| JuLy 7 - 8 2005 |
Thursday July 7 2005
Dear Mr BiGgLeS
I have to get out of this apartment Mommy is driving me crazy! Shes
worried about Daddy and she doesnt make enough money and how
can she pay for bills and how can she be alone and how can she get
Daddy back and how can she tell him she doesnt want to ever see him
again! Its driving me crazy! At least Matthew doesnt have to hear it
hes at Pages and Perrys a lot. But Mommy goes to work then comes
home then calls somebody right away. Then if Leslie or Sibyl or
Naomi or somebody isnt here then she always has some reason she
has to go to Page and Perrys. Why doesnt she just go live with her
Mommy and Daddy again and leave me alone?
I cant wait to go on vacation I wish I didnt have to wait til August.
But of course thats when my airplane tickets r for and I had to wait
anyway til after summer school was over. And thats right after Im
letting Herbie go. Ok now I want to rewrite that. I do not want to let
Herbie go! Hes my boo baby! But I want to date other guys. I wish I
could figure this out and I have to figure it out soon!
later
Ok I talked to Germana and I had some real surprises! She spent the
night with me and she is so kewl. I can have sleepovers as often as I
want cuz Mommy doesnt want to be alone so she doesnt mind me
having girls over. I think shed freak if I asked a guy! LMAO Of
course Ive had coed sleepovers but that was always with a group and
there was adult supervision. Cept when Herbie and I stay at Aunt
Lizzies! ;)
Germana said she likes to eat anything cuz she travels the world so
she had to learn to try anything. Cept somethings she wont eat. She
wont eat peaches cuz of the fuzz. She said she doesnt mind hair but
she doesnt like fuzz! LMAO And she really likes black and white
movies. She said they make better movies in Europe but the old
American movies were better. Of course Aunt Lizzie likes art films
too and so does Uncle Oz. Really I want to see more of them too.
And she says I should definitely go to concerts. I never go to
concerts but she goes a lot. I go to ones like for school but I mean
like pop stars. I dont know. I really like music but I dont spend any
money on it. I can get it free online and I dont even do that! I just
listen to the radio. Oh and she said shell help me find a cell phone! I
have to get one shes had like three of them!
And Germana gives good advice! She said I need to let myself be free
cuz Herbie probably wants to date other girls anyway! I said I dont
think he does but she said well hes straight up not going to tell u that!
She said every guy thinks about more than one girl. I wanted to tell
her about Steve Steves story cuz thats about more than one girl of
course. But I didnt cuz we decided to wait til Becky reads it.
Germana said she thinks about more than one guy. And then she said
sometimes she thinks about girls too! :o Ok I know girls do Becky
does all the time cuz shes bi and of course I have sometimes even
though Im straight. But Germana doesnt even ask how do u feel or
something she just straight up tells u. Shes a lot like Aunt Lizzie I
guess thats why her families friends with her. Germana even calls her
Aunt Lizzie like I do so its almost like were cuzins. I almost told her
about my diary but I didnt. But I straight want to tell her! Its just
nobody reads it who knows me IRL cept Becky, Mindy, and Laura.
Oh and Harmony but he read it like years b4 I saw him IRL. Ill see
him on vacation again which is totally kewl! Hes a great friend. And Ill
see Mindys Aunt Yvette and Allen and Vickie and Josh and maybe
Dan. It will be so kewl!
Anyway Germana and I made this agreement. I told her I had
something I wanted to tell her and she told me she had something she
wanted to tell me. Of course what I want to tell her is about my diary
and my new website. So we agreed wed both think about it and then
decide. Its like if I tell her then shell tell me. I straight up dont know
what she wants to tell me I am totally curious!
Oh I didnt know if Germana likes doing cuddles or not so I didnt ask
her. But this was kewl. I said I could sleep in a sleeping bag and she
could sleep in my bed. But she said she didnt want to kick me out of
my own bed and my bed was big enough. Isnt that kewl? Of course I
sleep with Becky and Mindy and I did with Laura a lot when she lived
her. Its something I do with my best friends. So really I almost feel
like Germanas one of my best friends now! Oh and I have with other
ppl too. But of course I do cuddles with Becky and Mindy and I used
to with Laura even though she wont do that anymore. Shes afraid
shell seem lesbian. Germana and I didnt do cuddles but it was still
sweet. I know Ill tell her about my diary I really dont have to wait.
And I want to show her my big website Im totally excited about that!
Friday July 8 2005
Dear Mr BiGgLeS
Tonight Mindy and I r housesitting with Becky! I dont have college
tonight we got our midterm in like a week! A six week class is so
fast! But Im learning a lot in psychology. I think its helping me
understand things about ppl and why they do things. But I still think
Mommy and Daddy r just being immature! Ill see Daddy this weekend
I totally miss him. And Ill see my boo baby Herbie too! I dont think
this is a good time to tell him though. I mean that I want to be free for
awhile. Its just a trial separation I have to explain that to him.
later
Mindy and I r with Beckys! Becky picked us up and brought us here.
Were housesitting for Hunters family if u dont know thats Beckys
boyfriend. Becky says I should tell u about her boyfriends family.
Hunters Dads name is Hunter too and his Moms name is Alida.
Hunters Dad works for like a roofing company I think he does gutters
or something and his Mom helps with daycare. Really I should talk to
her about getting a job! But of course she lives far away from me. I
like babysitting but after summer Ill only have two kids. Anyway they
have two dogs which r a pit bull named Gram and another dog named
Jumper but I dont remember what kind it is. Becky says its a mutt. I
think they got a bird too but somebody else is taking care of it.
Tomorrow were going out on a group date! Of course Hunter wont
be here but Jude and Herbie will be and Kevin and Cassie! So that will
be kewl. I dont know who else is going.
Ok Becky wanted me to write about Hunter and now shes saying get
off the computer! She wants to read Steve Steves story! lol Poor
Becky we made her wait a whole week! LMAO
later
Mindy Becky and I read Steve Steves story. Really I read it and they
listened and Ill tell u why in a sec. U wont believe what they did!
Becky said the story was awesome! Of course Mindy and I read it b4
but this was Beckys first time. She has like a million questions. Shes
getting hyper she needs to take her ADHD meds! lol She asked me a
lot about Beth cuz they know each other in the story I mean really
well. ;) So I showed her Beths website. I think Becky saw it b4 but
she forgot. And she wants to know does Steve Steve really dream like
t? LMAO j/k
But the part I didnt like was Becky and Mindy both wanted to do
sharies but Im on my period! Becky said its good Hunters not here
cuz shes totally ovulating. She says she has a slimefall downstairs!
LMAO I dont even know when I ovulate I guess I should keep track.
Of course it doesnt matter as long as Im a virgin. Becky said she
doesnt have to keep track she totally knows. Her periods arent regular
like mine so its weird she knows when shes ovulating and I dont!
So this was weird. I read the story while Mindy and Becky held hands
and did sharies! Oh they just said I watched them more than I read
the story but that is straight up not true! lol Silly girls. But then guess
what they did? They kissed each other and they touched tongues
again! :o I guess thats cuz Beckys a bad lil girl! lol If u dont know
thats what Steve Steve calls her in the story. Oh Becky says thats
what she calls herself! lol
Then this was funny. We had pizza and Becky said Mindy couldnt eat
any cuz she was just a baby. She had to drink some milk! :o So I said
if shes old enough to talk shes old enough to eat pizza. So I said
Mindy show Becky u can talk. And then Mindy just started making
baby sounds like Ma Ma! LMAO She even blew bubbles! lol It was
really silly. So Becky said we should go to a party like a costume
party and dress Mindy up like a baby! And I could be her mother.
Then I asked Becky what she would be. And she said shed be Mindys
bratty sister! Thats really what I need two bratty kids to take care of!
lol
Ok they want me off computer so Ill finish this later.
later
Later it got more serious. I started thinking about Daddy being gone
even though Ill see him this weekend so we talked about it. And then
Becky talked about how shell never see her Daddy again! I mean in
this life. It is so sad! Then Mindy got sad too and I thought she was
sad for us. But she said that was part of it but also she worries about
losing her Papa! She doesnt think he would ever leave her or her
Mama cuz he loves them so much. But sometimes she worries about
him working on cars and what if something happens?
I dont know it straight up isnt fair. How can u lose somebody u love
so much? I know it all balances out in karma but still.
Anyway none of us wanted to sleep alone while the other two slept
together. Becky said she doesnt care but I know she does. She hasnt
liked sleeping alone ever since her Daddy died. I thought it was weird
cuz she slept alone b4 but now I understand. I dont like sleeping by
myself right now either. Of course I have Mr Biggles. Becky said they
might get a cat or a dog now cuz she and Beth and her Mom arent
allergic like Leon was. But right now they havent cuz it would remind
them that hes gone.
Anyway Hunters bed was too small so we used Hunter and Alidas
bed. Becky said it was ok. Oh I mean Hunters Dad. Becky said she
calls Hunters Dad Hunter Pop so I guess thats what Ill call him so ull
know which Hunter I mean. So Hunter is the son and Hunter Pop is
the Dad. Anyway we all did cuddles which was sweet. Becky was on
one end I was in the middle and Mindy was in front. I love doing
cuddles!
Dear Mr BiGgLeS
I have to get out of this apartment Mommy is driving me crazy! Shes
worried about Daddy and she doesnt make enough money and how
can she pay for bills and how can she be alone and how can she get
Daddy back and how can she tell him she doesnt want to ever see him
again! Its driving me crazy! At least Matthew doesnt have to hear it
hes at Pages and Perrys a lot. But Mommy goes to work then comes
home then calls somebody right away. Then if Leslie or Sibyl or
Naomi or somebody isnt here then she always has some reason she
has to go to Page and Perrys. Why doesnt she just go live with her
Mommy and Daddy again and leave me alone?
I cant wait to go on vacation I wish I didnt have to wait til August.
But of course thats when my airplane tickets r for and I had to wait
anyway til after summer school was over. And thats right after Im
letting Herbie go. Ok now I want to rewrite that. I do not want to let
Herbie go! Hes my boo baby! But I want to date other guys. I wish I
could figure this out and I have to figure it out soon!
later
Ok I talked to Germana and I had some real surprises! She spent the
night with me and she is so kewl. I can have sleepovers as often as I
want cuz Mommy doesnt want to be alone so she doesnt mind me
having girls over. I think shed freak if I asked a guy! LMAO Of
course Ive had coed sleepovers but that was always with a group and
there was adult supervision. Cept when Herbie and I stay at Aunt
Lizzies! ;)
Germana said she likes to eat anything cuz she travels the world so
she had to learn to try anything. Cept somethings she wont eat. She
wont eat peaches cuz of the fuzz. She said she doesnt mind hair but
she doesnt like fuzz! LMAO And she really likes black and white
movies. She said they make better movies in Europe but the old
American movies were better. Of course Aunt Lizzie likes art films
too and so does Uncle Oz. Really I want to see more of them too.
And she says I should definitely go to concerts. I never go to
concerts but she goes a lot. I go to ones like for school but I mean
like pop stars. I dont know. I really like music but I dont spend any
money on it. I can get it free online and I dont even do that! I just
listen to the radio. Oh and she said shell help me find a cell phone! I
have to get one shes had like three of them!
And Germana gives good advice! She said I need to let myself be free
cuz Herbie probably wants to date other girls anyway! I said I dont
think he does but she said well hes straight up not going to tell u that!
She said every guy thinks about more than one girl. I wanted to tell
her about Steve Steves story cuz thats about more than one girl of
course. But I didnt cuz we decided to wait til Becky reads it.
Germana said she thinks about more than one guy. And then she said
sometimes she thinks about girls too! :o Ok I know girls do Becky
does all the time cuz shes bi and of course I have sometimes even
though Im straight. But Germana doesnt even ask how do u feel or
something she just straight up tells u. Shes a lot like Aunt Lizzie I
guess thats why her families friends with her. Germana even calls her
Aunt Lizzie like I do so its almost like were cuzins. I almost told her
about my diary but I didnt. But I straight want to tell her! Its just
nobody reads it who knows me IRL cept Becky, Mindy, and Laura.
Oh and Harmony but he read it like years b4 I saw him IRL. Ill see
him on vacation again which is totally kewl! Hes a great friend. And Ill
see Mindys Aunt Yvette and Allen and Vickie and Josh and maybe
Dan. It will be so kewl!
Anyway Germana and I made this agreement. I told her I had
something I wanted to tell her and she told me she had something she
wanted to tell me. Of course what I want to tell her is about my diary
and my new website. So we agreed wed both think about it and then
decide. Its like if I tell her then shell tell me. I straight up dont know
what she wants to tell me I am totally curious!
Oh I didnt know if Germana likes doing cuddles or not so I didnt ask
her. But this was kewl. I said I could sleep in a sleeping bag and she
could sleep in my bed. But she said she didnt want to kick me out of
my own bed and my bed was big enough. Isnt that kewl? Of course I
sleep with Becky and Mindy and I did with Laura a lot when she lived
her. Its something I do with my best friends. So really I almost feel
like Germanas one of my best friends now! Oh and I have with other
ppl too. But of course I do cuddles with Becky and Mindy and I used
to with Laura even though she wont do that anymore. Shes afraid
shell seem lesbian. Germana and I didnt do cuddles but it was still
sweet. I know Ill tell her about my diary I really dont have to wait.
And I want to show her my big website Im totally excited about that!
Friday July 8 2005
Dear Mr BiGgLeS
Tonight Mindy and I r housesitting with Becky! I dont have college
tonight we got our midterm in like a week! A six week class is so
fast! But Im learning a lot in psychology. I think its helping me
understand things about ppl and why they do things. But I still think
Mommy and Daddy r just being immature! Ill see Daddy this weekend
I totally miss him. And Ill see my boo baby Herbie too! I dont think
this is a good time to tell him though. I mean that I want to be free for
awhile. Its just a trial separation I have to explain that to him.
later
Mindy and I r with Beckys! Becky picked us up and brought us here.
Were housesitting for Hunters family if u dont know thats Beckys
boyfriend. Becky says I should tell u about her boyfriends family.
Hunters Dads name is Hunter too and his Moms name is Alida.
Hunters Dad works for like a roofing company I think he does gutters
or something and his Mom helps with daycare. Really I should talk to
her about getting a job! But of course she lives far away from me. I
like babysitting but after summer Ill only have two kids. Anyway they
have two dogs which r a pit bull named Gram and another dog named
Jumper but I dont remember what kind it is. Becky says its a mutt. I
think they got a bird too but somebody else is taking care of it.
Tomorrow were going out on a group date! Of course Hunter wont
be here but Jude and Herbie will be and Kevin and Cassie! So that will
be kewl. I dont know who else is going.
Ok Becky wanted me to write about Hunter and now shes saying get
off the computer! She wants to read Steve Steves story! lol Poor
Becky we made her wait a whole week! LMAO
later
Mindy Becky and I read Steve Steves story. Really I read it and they
listened and Ill tell u why in a sec. U wont believe what they did!
Becky said the story was awesome! Of course Mindy and I read it b4
but this was Beckys first time. She has like a million questions. Shes
getting hyper she needs to take her ADHD meds! lol She asked me a
lot about Beth cuz they know each other in the story I mean really
well. ;) So I showed her Beths website. I think Becky saw it b4 but
she forgot. And she wants to know does Steve Steve really dream like
t? LMAO j/k
But the part I didnt like was Becky and Mindy both wanted to do
sharies but Im on my period! Becky said its good Hunters not here
cuz shes totally ovulating. She says she has a slimefall downstairs!
LMAO I dont even know when I ovulate I guess I should keep track.
Of course it doesnt matter as long as Im a virgin. Becky said she
doesnt have to keep track she totally knows. Her periods arent regular
like mine so its weird she knows when shes ovulating and I dont!
So this was weird. I read the story while Mindy and Becky held hands
and did sharies! Oh they just said I watched them more than I read
the story but that is straight up not true! lol Silly girls. But then guess
what they did? They kissed each other and they touched tongues
again! :o I guess thats cuz Beckys a bad lil girl! lol If u dont know
thats what Steve Steve calls her in the story. Oh Becky says thats
what she calls herself! lol
Then this was funny. We had pizza and Becky said Mindy couldnt eat
any cuz she was just a baby. She had to drink some milk! :o So I said
if shes old enough to talk shes old enough to eat pizza. So I said
Mindy show Becky u can talk. And then Mindy just started making
baby sounds like Ma Ma! LMAO She even blew bubbles! lol It was
really silly. So Becky said we should go to a party like a costume
party and dress Mindy up like a baby! And I could be her mother.
Then I asked Becky what she would be. And she said shed be Mindys
bratty sister! Thats really what I need two bratty kids to take care of!
lol
Ok they want me off computer so Ill finish this later.
later
Later it got more serious. I started thinking about Daddy being gone
even though Ill see him this weekend so we talked about it. And then
Becky talked about how shell never see her Daddy again! I mean in
this life. It is so sad! Then Mindy got sad too and I thought she was
sad for us. But she said that was part of it but also she worries about
losing her Papa! She doesnt think he would ever leave her or her
Mama cuz he loves them so much. But sometimes she worries about
him working on cars and what if something happens?
I dont know it straight up isnt fair. How can u lose somebody u love
so much? I know it all balances out in karma but still.
Anyway none of us wanted to sleep alone while the other two slept
together. Becky said she doesnt care but I know she does. She hasnt
liked sleeping alone ever since her Daddy died. I thought it was weird
cuz she slept alone b4 but now I understand. I dont like sleeping by
myself right now either. Of course I have Mr Biggles. Becky said they
might get a cat or a dog now cuz she and Beth and her Mom arent
allergic like Leon was. But right now they havent cuz it would remind
them that hes gone.
Anyway Hunters bed was too small so we used Hunter and Alidas
bed. Becky said it was ok. Oh I mean Hunters Dad. Becky said she
calls Hunters Dad Hunter Pop so I guess thats what Ill call him so ull
know which Hunter I mean. So Hunter is the son and Hunter Pop is
the Dad. Anyway we all did cuddles which was sweet. Becky was on
one end I was in the middle and Mindy was in front. I love doing
cuddles!
| Copyright by Lorien Loveshade |
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| My DiArY! |
Germana said my
boyfriend probably wants
to date other girls!
boyfriend probably wants
to date other girls!
Daddys still not back
and Mommys driving
me crazy!
and Mommys driving
me crazy!
Tonight Mindy and
I r housesitting
with Becky!
I r housesitting
with Becky!
U wont believe
what Becky and
Mindy did when I
read Steve Steves
Hot Story to them!
what Becky and
Mindy did when I
read Steve Steves
Hot Story to them!
Becky and I miss
our Daddys! :(
our Daddys! :(