| DeCeMbEr 13 - 15 2005 |
| Tuesday December 13 2005 Dear Mr BiGgLeS This is totally weird but for some reason today I felt depressed! I dont know why. I have so much happening I should be excited! I hope Im not getting sick or something! I didnt even feel like babysitting but thank Goddess Kim and Rodney were easy today. I think it will be better now that they and Charlotte have their own apartment again. Really its cool with Mindy next door. She wont be spending the night with me Thursday cuz thats Raidons b-day hell be 9. Then Mexi will be 16 on Sunday but of course Ill see him at the party Saturday. Ok Im not even going to write any more Im going to bed. Wednesday December 14 2005 Dear Mr BiGgLeS Guess what? Deno said he wants to join our coven! Of course our branch will be a coven next month. Were having our esbat tomorrow. I dont know if Denos ready to be a Wiccan intiate but he will be! I have so much to do! Tonight is Mindys concert, then tomorrow is our esbat and then Ella and Wendi r spending the night with me after cuz Mindy has Raidons b-day, then Friday Ella and Wendi and I r meeting Johnnie! Ellas met him b4 of course but Wendi and I havent. Hes staying in a motel so were going to meet him there. And dont get worried hes safe and therell be three girls there anyway! LMAO But Im really excited about it but also nervous. Then Saturday is Germanas familys Christmas party and of course thats the beginning of winter vacation! I guess Im not going anywhere cuz Benny and Brandy r coming here. But Im really excited about seeing them! I wish Daddy would see them too but oh well. I cant change Daddy. And Laura should be here too so thats kewl. I might be able to go with Mindys family to see her Aunt Hanah but I dont know if that will work or not. later Mindys concert was great! It wasnt just her orchestra they had the band and choir too. The orchestra is really good! They even had a part for flutes where it was just three ppl playing it and one of them was Mindy! And shes only a sophomore! Shes really good on the flute. Mindys family went of course and a lot of her friends were there so that was kewl. Ella didnt think she should go cuz her Mamma and Poppy would wonder why she wanted to be gone three nights in a row. Cuz she and Wendi r spending the night with me tomorrow and then Friday were meeting Johnnie! But I was really surprised that Wendi went I didnt think she could. Her Dads letting her do more now so thats good. Really hes her stepdad. later I had a totally weird dream! I dreamt this Wednesday night but Im writing this Thursday. Anyway in my dream I was in my bed and it was totally dark. Usually my room isnt totally dark but it was in my dream. But then I thought I saw something on my bed and first I thought it was Speedo. But then I saw it was moving! And I was like OMG somebody is in my room on my bed! But the weird thing was I didnt feel very scared I was just curious. It was like whos sitting on my bed? I was afraid to say something so I just looked. And then my room got lighter but really slowly. And I looked and it was Johnnie! And this is really weird but I thought oh I forgot he was going to be here. Im like why did I think that? Cuz Johnnies not coming here were seeing him at his motel. He was writing something in a notebook but I couldnt see what it was. Oh and he was wearing a bathrobe it was like midnight blue. He didnt even look at me he just kept writing. Then I woke up! It was funny cuz I thought I want to go back to sleep to ask Johnnie what he was doing in my bedroom! LMAO But dont be mad Johnnie its just a dream! lol Thursday December 15 2005 Dear Mr BiGgLeS I was almost late for school! The car wouldnt start! If u dont know Mindy and I ride with Germana and Mexi. We go to the coffee place a lot b4 school but we couldnt today of course. But we got there on time. Mexis excited cuz in three days hell be 16 and can get his drivers license. He wants to get it right on his b-day but he cant do it til Monday. Todays Raidons b-day hes 9. later U wont believe whats happening with Ella! Ella and Wendi were going to spend the night with me tonight. But Ella changed her mind cuz she wants me to say shes spending the night with me tomorrow. But shes really not planning to be with me cuz tomorrow Johnnies coming! Wendi and I r like what is she doing? Shes just 13 she is straight up not old enough! later I had to finish this later cuz Wendi was here. Im writing this Friday but this is what happened Thursday. I wanted to change what I wrote but Mindy thinks I should leave it like it is. 13 is old enough for sex I dont know why I wrote that cuz I am not ageist. Mary the mother of Jesus was only 13 when she got pregnant. But what I meant was I dont think Ella is ready! Shes done things with guys b4 but not that! She hasnt even gone downstairs with a guy yet. Anyway I should tell u about our esbat first. Ella wasnt there but Miss Sasha, Goldina, Mindy, Wendi, Germana, Austra, Carol and I were. I thought Deno was coming but he didnt and I knew Kayla couldnt be there. We arent really asking anybody else to come til were our own coven cuz we have some things to decide. I think everybody will be there for Winter Solstice cept Germana and Austra. But one thing we talked about was doing our ceremonies topfree! Germana said she thought we could. Really some covens do some even go skyclad. Right now my branch just has girls so its not a problem cept I dont think Carol wants to do it. And Austra doesnt want to if theres guys there. Im a nudist of course so I dont care. So then I was like what if Deno joins? Cuz I really dont think Deno would be comfortable. I talked about Catovida too I wish he could come back but of course he cant. It probably wouldnt bother him any. Germana said his coven doesnt have hardly any members! She said its just Catovida, Rad, Olive and this girl named Choiko thats it! But heres good news. Miss Sasha and Goldina said Olive could still apply to join us if she wants to! They said she was never a member so its not like she left or anything. Catovida rejected the covens authority even though I think Rad was the one who planned it. We gave Catovida a second chance but he wouldnt take it. But Olive wasnt even an initiate so its not her fault! I hope she comes back. They said theres somebody else they might consider but theyll talk about that after were our own coven. That will be in a month! Ill miss my old coven but I never see them anyway just a few times a year. And I still go to some of their ceremonies we can even do joint ceremonies. Of course the next one will be joint! Well be recognized as a coven and Germana and Wendi will be accepted as initiates. Ok I want to talk about Ella. She said she just wants to spend the night with Johnnie that doesnt mean shes going to have sex. But Wendi and I were like if u spend the night alone with a guy and ur inexperienced sex can happen! I know Becky and Hunter slept together b4 they had sex and Herbie and I did too and were both still virgins. So I know u can do it but still. Becky and I have both done more than Ella has. We wanted to talk to Johnnie but we couldnt get him. Please dont think anything bad about Johnnie cuz hes a great guy! But he straight up doesnt know what Ella is up to. So Wendi and I tried to talk Ella out of it but she wouldnt listen! So I dont know whats going to happen. Ella is not ready to give up her virginity! |
| Copyright 2005 by Lorien Loveshade |
| My DiArY! |
| 13 is old enough for sex but that doesnt mean Ella is ready! |
| Good news about our Wiccan branch. |
| Deno said he wants to join our coven! |
| I have so much to do! |
| I had a totally weird dream! |
| Ellas planning to spend the night with who? |
| She just wants to spend the night with him that doesnt mean shes going to have sex. |
| This is totally weird but for some reason today I felt depressed! I dont know why. |
| Ella is not ready to give up her virginity! |