| JaNuArY 20 - 24 2006 |
| Friday January 20 2006 Dear Mr BiGgLeS Im really nervous about doing my final speech. Im talking about Wicca and some ppl think Wicca is evil! Of course its not. We dont do black magic we dont worship Satan we dont even believe in Satan. But some ppl dont understand it. Some schools wont even let u wear a pentagram! How can ppl wear crosses and not pentagrams? I dont know what u call that but its against our religion. Anyway Germana and Mindy told me I have to talk to Les! I dont really know him but Germana said hes part Indian so we have a common heritage. Oh and she said I shouldnt worry about catching any diseases from him cuz hes very clean! LMAO Of course hes good in English or he wouldnt be in my honors class. Anyway I promised Id talk to him Monday! I have to get ready to see Austra! later We had some surprises and something really special happened! Goldina, Tamber, and I went. Germana wasnt with us cuz they said it would be better without Austras sister there. Sorry Germana! Really Germana said she didnt care. We talked about Austras initiation cuz were doing it for Imbolc. She already has everything memorized! Shes really smart. We showed her the site that talks about how Wicca and Christianity can work together. Really the site says its hard for Catholics but Austra already figured that out. Then Goldina said that I would be Austras main teacher which is really kewl. But I asked Austra if she wanted me to be and she said “of course!” Sometimes when u tell her something she sounds like she already knows it and shes surprised u didnt know she knew! lol Then finally Goldina got to where she told Austra that were life bonded. And Austra just said “yes” and nodded! So I was like did she already know? But then guess what she said? She said "I know Im bound to Aunt Lorien.” She really did! Isnt that kewl? She called me her aunt! So I hugged her of course even though she doesnt hug a lot. Im life bonded to Austra in this life and Im her teacher and now Im her aunt! Of course Mindy and I r soulmates through the ages. But Austra and I have a special connection in this life. Ive never been an aunt b4! I told her Im almost like an aunt to Matthew cuz Im fourteen years older than him. But Im only seven years older than Austra! But I guess thats ok cuz Aunt Ebee is Bennys aunt and hes older than she is! Austra knows I was Mindys mother b4 but in this life Im only three years older than her. I dont have any nephews or nieces cuz Aunt Ebee and Uncle Frankie havent had any children yet and neither have Benny and Brandy. They want to wait to have kids. But now Im an aunt! Later Goldina and Tamber said sometimes somebody whos a really old soul talks like they already know things when theyre young. And it can even be when they didnt know them! Its like their soul knows things but their mind doesnt. So when u teach them something its new to their mind but not to their soul. Thats why sometimes when u learn something new it feels like u already knew it. Its something u learned in a past life. So now I wonder if I was Austras aunt in a past life! Ill have to ask Miss Sasha cuz she can tell. Goldina said she just reads palms in this life she cant read the palm u used to have! lol Shes going to teach me how to read palms which is cool. Ok heres the other surprise. Goldina wanted to know what I thought about making Tamber our High Priest! Really I think it would be good. Hes our only Priest but we really need a High Priest. Cuz we arent balanced with a High Priestess and no High Priest. Goldina said Miss Sasha thinks its ok too. Germana and Mindy both said it was ok so we have to talk to the other members. If everybody agrees well have a High Priest on the next full moon! Saturday January 21 2006 Dear Mr BiGgLeS I wasnt going to babysit Shari today but I did. Really it was ok cuz she wasnt a problem and I got time to do homework for high school. I got none for college now and Wednesday is my last day of high school this semester. B4 I babysat Shari at Charlottes but this time was at Shari and Lonis apartment. They live downstairs and its just a one bedroom Sharis sweet. Shes 5 and goes to kindergarten but thats not all day. She has a teddy bear she calls George. He only has one eye but Loni said Shari wont let anybody fix him! lol She really likes ballet so I showed her some dance moves. I really dont know a lot about ballet but some of the basic moves r the same as modern dance. Oh and she doesnt like going to parks cuz she says the birds will steal ur money! lol Shes cute. Loni works at a small restaurant but Ive never been there. I told her Id go there sometime. Oh I finally met the ppl who live in my old apartment! Its a man named Jasper and a woman named Diane. There like Mommy and Daddys age but I dont know much about them. Sunday January 22 2006 Dear Mr BiGgLeS Beckys family is moving! I didnt even know if they would or if they could stay. But Becky said really the house is too big. Theres just Kay, Beth, and Becky and Beth might be moving out and Becky might go to a college somewhere else. I hope she graduates from high school ok! Her grades havent been very good since Leon died. Theyre going to move next month so I told them Id help them. But they dont even know where theyre moving! Becky said they might move into an apartment until they find a smaller house. I cant believe this semester is almost over. Then next semester is my last one in high school! Really Im glad. I like high school ok but I like college a lot better. But Im going to miss all my friends! I dont even know where Im going yet. One college is close but ones by the beach and the other one is in Northern California where Benny and Brandy r. I dont want to leave my friends but I dont know where theyre going anyway! Germana might be going to college in Europe so no matter where I go I wont be close to her! I dont know what Beckys doing. Of course Mindys just a sophomore and her family isnt planning to move. I dont want to leave Mindy! And Austra is calling me Aunt Lorien now and I have a life bond with her. And my branch just became a coven! Im a Priestess and I have responsibilities. So how can I move away? Dena and Harmony both told me I should visit the colleges again. But its like Im afraid to visit! When I go there I wonder am I ever coming back? I know thats stupid. If I go to the college thats close I could still live here. But really Id like to get a bigger apartment not just a bedroom and bathroom. But I dont know what Id do with a kitchen cuz I dont know how to cook anything but breakfast! And I dont want to eat fast food all the time cuz that can make u fat. But I dont want to live here forever! And really I think it would be good for me to move. I can still come back and visit. But I dont want to live with my family all my life! Im not really living with them now but I still have dinner with them. I might live in a dorm but then u get roommates and u dont even know who theyre going to be. I dont want roommates who just want to get jacked all the time! But I want to do good in college. Im a Wiccan Priestess and a Wiccan tutor so I have to be responsible. Monday January 23 2006 Dear Mr BiGgLeS I did it so dont ask me to do it again! lol I talked to Les in English class. He told me he really likes computer games and Hip Hop. He talked about groups I never even heard of! He lives with his Mom and doesnt see his Dad but he said he doesnt care. Hes Methodist but he doesnt go to church. He told me about his old pit bull dog and about riding motorcycles. But he didnt ask me anything about me! Hes ok I guess but really I dont think we have anything in common. So Im not asking him to go to the Valentines Day Dance! I saw Deno and I know he was going to ask me but I was talking to Les. Really I think Deno should ask Mindy! They used to go on dates. Mindy doesnt want a boyfriend but she likes to date! later Germana spent the night with me which was cool. Really I thought it would be fun to stay with Germana and Austra and we could talk about Wicca. But I think well do that during the four day weekend. Germana said I should go to college in Europe with her! But really its totally expensive. She said I could stay with her which is really sweet. But I havent even applied anywhere. And she doesnt know where shes going anyway! And we dont know when were having the party for Crystal. Thats Beckys name on her fake ID. She was born February 15 which is also Goldinas b-day! And Kaylas is after that but I forget the date. And Daddys is close too! The Valentines Dance is February 10 so we might have the party the weekend after. But Beckys real birthday is in March! If u dont know I was born March 13 1988 and she was born two days after me on March 15. So well have a real birthday party then anyway. How can we have a fake party for Becky if we dont have a real party for Kayla and Goldina? Oh this is funny. Austra started calling me Aunt Lorien and of course Germana is Austras older sister. So Germana and I were trying to figure out how were related! lol I thought that would mean Id be Germanas sister. But Germana said if Im Austras aunt then Im her aunt too! LMAO So she was calling me Aunt Lorien! lol Of course she was just kidding. I really am like an aunt to Austra but Im more like a sister to Germana. Its weird though cuz Im a little older than Germana and Im a Priestess in our coven and she just became an Initiate. But in a lot of ways she seems older than me! I think its cuz shes been all over the world and met lots of ppl. I havent been anywhere really cept California and Texas and Ohio. Ive been in other states but not very long. I really have to go somewhere! Oh and Germana was teasing me that I dont want to turn 18 and still be a virgin! :o So I was like what am I supposed to do Germana find some new guy and have sex with him in two months? lol Of course she was kidding but I dont know. Really I think she was serious! She first had sex when she was 13 and she said shes glad she did. Oh and she said Britney Spears waited to have sex til she was 18 and look what happened to her? And I was like Germana I straight up am not Britney Spears! lol Tuesday January 24 2006 Dear Mr BiGgLeS Why didnt I practice my speech more last night? I have to do it today and I am totally nervous! later Giving my final speech about Wicca was weird! I think Mr. Singer thinks I did fine but Jacki was pissed! Shes Christian and she thinks Wiccans r evil! And she straight up didnt like me wearing my pentagram. She started talking to me about Hell but I did not want to hear it! I am so tired of ppl who straight up dont know what theyre talking about! Evil witches who worshipped Satan and sacrificed babies and all that r made up! They were made up in the Middle Ages by the Church they werent even real. Ppl were afraid so they made stuff up so they could accuse somebody else of causing all their problems. The Christians killed a lot of ppl who didnt do anything wrong but tried to help ppl. Some of the ppl they killed were even Christian! I wish when Jacki said she was going to give me some tracks I said Id give her some too! Really I think she should learn about Wicca! But Wiccans dont force their religion on ppl I even said that in my speech. And a pentagram is not an evil symbol! It stands for the four elements of air, fire, water, and earth coming together in harmony to form the fifth element of spirit. It also represents the human body which has five parts which r the head, the two hands and arms, and two feet and legs. It stands for nature in balance and harmony. Really I should have talked about the pentagram more I just showed it and talked about it a little. Ok I dont want to talk about that anymore. Harmony gave me advice about college thanks Harmony! He said really all I have to decide is if Im going or not and then where Im going. I already decided Im going so I just have to decide where! But I shouldnt worry about it til I know where Ive been accepted. He said I could even go to junior college. He said they have better teachers and then I can go to a four year college later. But I dont know if I want to do that. I really should write about my high school more. I dont write much about school. But its like years from now I wont even remember what I did! I guess I will but I really should write more. This semester ends Wednesday and then next semester is my last! |
| Copyright 2006 by Lorien Loveshade |
| My DiArY! |
| I finally met the ppl who live in my old apartment! |
| I hope Becky graduates from high school ok! |
| Germana and Mindy told me I have to talk to Les! |
| Did Austra already know that were life bonded? |
| Sometimes when u learn something new it feels like u already knew it. Its something u learned in a past life. |
| I babysat Shari whos 5 years old and shes sweet. |
| I want to go to a four year college but how can I move away from my friends? |
| I talked to Les in English class. |
| Giving my final speech about Wicca was weird! |
| Germana said I should go to college in Europe with her! |
| Germana said if Im Austras aunt then Im her aunt too! lol |
| Harmony said all I have to decide about college is if Im going or not and then where Im going. |
| Im really nervous about doing my final speech about Wicca. |
| Im a Wiccan Priestess and a Wiccan tutor so I have to be responsible. |