Saturday October 13 2001
Dear Mr Biggles,
I waited like ALL DAY for Page and Perry to show up. There my grandparents on my Mommys side but
I call them Page and Perry. Becky wanted me to go with her to a movie but I had to wait at home and
they were so late I could have seen two movies and still got back in time!
Anyway they werent even here very long. Aunt Ebee didnt come but I knew that already. Benny wasnt
here which is too bad. Oh and this is wierd Perry saw a flyer I had for Red Ribbon Week which is an
anti-drug week thats coming soon. Anyway I should of put it away cuz it got him real mad about
government control and brainwashing the minds of young ppl and stuff. He said if drugs are so bad
why does the government make tons of money taxing cigarettes and alcohol and why are three of the
biggest companies in America drug companies and stuff like that. I love Perry but it was kind of funny
cuz Page and Mommy just kept talking and ignoring him. Daddy was watching TV so I was the one
who had to listen! Sometimes I think I dont belong in this family! Maybe Im really an adopted princess
or something! :P
We all went out to eat pizza and Becky called and said her Aunt Eva will be there tommorrow so I do
get to see her too!
Sunday October 14 2001
Dear Mr Biggles,
Ok I am REALLY stupid! I messed stuff up and I am sorry! But I kind of feel happy too which makes me
feel guilty!
I went to Beckys to see her Aunt Eva. This instead of doing a TON of homework I have. Ok mostly
Math and Social Studies but you dont want to here about that. But I will say Im AHEAD in English!
Ok so Aunt Eva tells me I got everything wrong! I mean she says it nice but thats what she meant. Its
not like they didnt want Laura to go to their wiccan ceremony even though they wanted Becky, Paula
and me. They didnt ask for Paula ether! I guess Becky got that part messed up but thats ok I messed
up the rest. What it was was that she and the High Priestest wanted the others to meet me cuz they
might let me join their coven! I felt stupid and excited at the same time! And the reason there was
more than 13 there is cuz there were ppl from two covens and a couple other ppl were new too I think.
I still dont know how it worked but I guess they want me! Its not official but there deciding on Tuesday
and if its yes then Im in! Im so excited! And Becky I guess isnt official but she will be too so well be in
the same time!
And once we get to be members we can try to get Paula in. I wish Laura hadnt moved we could try to
get her in too. Oh I called Laura and explained everything and shes cool with it and said congrats and
stuff. She likes her new school but she misses ours. She hasnt found any wiccan group yet I guess
but she is making friends. Im glad but still Im a little sad cuz shes getting new friends.
So this might be cool. If the dance is still Halloween I can dress up cuz its before real Halloween then
on Oct 31 I can go to the ceremony! I wonder if they have an initiation or something? I dont think
theyd do silly stuff like I heard fraternities do but they might have something! The only question now is
do I go with Herbie? He hasnt mentioned it recently so maybe the offer isnt even there anymore. I dont
mind going by myself I did that before or with Laura like I did last year at a dance. I dont even know
who Becky is going with but I bet I know!
Oh let me tell u about Aunt Eva. I think shes really Beckys great aunt which means shes the sister of
her grandmother or grandfather I think. She can read ppl really fast. She does tarot readings and I
think astrology and other things. She always looks like she sees things u dont see which is kind of
eerie (how do u spell that). Her fingers have lots of rings which are animals, faces, stones and other
things, and she was wearing a couple necklaces. I guess she loves jewelry. Becky said she always
wears a robe or dress which reminds me of Ms. Adelman. She took care of me after school for years
and even let me stop by when she wasn't doing any more and she always wore a dress. And she was
an early feminist and I think Aunt Eva is a feminist too. And they both teach which is even weirder
except Ms. Adelman was a retired school teacher but Aunt Eva teaches about spiritualism and tarot
reading and wicca and other things. She sells herbs but she calls them something else I cant
remember what it is.
So Im real excited! I get to bring in the witches new year and join a coven! At least I hope so!
Oh I almost forgot I called Grandma and wished her happy birthday. Shes 72. I dont even know how
old my other grandma is I call her Page and she never tells me her age and Mommy wont neither!
Grandma is my Daddys Mom and I dont get to see her or Grandpa much cuz they live far away.
Daddy talked to her too of course and Brandy cuz shes her Grandma too. Oh and I also said hi to
Grandpa.
Monday October 15 2001
Dear Mr Biggles,
Im a mess! Herbie asked me today if I want to go to the dance with him. I was hoping maybe he forgot
by now cuz Ive been avoiding him. I know that sounds cruel but I dont know what to do! Ok I do want to
go to the dance and if we can dress up I want to do that and Beckys going with someone else I think
so I dont know! I told him I would tell him on Wednesday. I know I should have told him already I guess
Im a bitch! Joses been ignoring me and its bothering me. I mean I know hes not interested in me but
he doesnt have to ignore me!
And I keep thinking about the coven. There meeting tommorrow so I guess Becky and me will hear
tommorrow evening but I cant wait to know! I really hope we get in I mean Ive been wanting this for a
long time! Aunt Eva is really cool and I know the High Priestest too and I hope Becky and I can get in
and ok Ill stop talking about it Ill know tommorrow.
Ok and now were like all freaked out about this anthrax (how do u spell it) thing. Im afraid to open a
letter! I mean I dont get much mail but Mommy doenst want to open any mail even from businesses or
the government! Daddy says dont worry so much but I dont want to get anthrax! I heard u should be
suspicious if its hand printed and has gramatical errors and no return address. Its like the tower thing
really bothered me a lot but I figure nobodys going to crash a plane here theres nothing important
here but anthrax could be mailed anywhere! Its like if u get email u can get a virus and if u get a letter
u can get anthrax! Maybe we should just use the telephone!
Oh I also heard that somebody put cockroach eggs on an envelop and when someone licked she got
a cockroach growing in her tonge! They say u should only wet envelops with a sponge. Its like u cant
do anything anymore cuz everythings dangerous!
Tuesday October 16 2001
Dear Mr Biggles,
Today was a CrAzY day! First I was late for school Im like never late. Oh thats another thing to be
afraid of I ride a bus to school and I guess I got to worry about terroists trying to crash it into the
mayors office or something! I heard about the Grayhound bus that crashed cuz this guy attacked the
driver. It was just like the terroists in New York only it was a bus instead of a plane.
Anyway so Im late I didnt get in trouble thank God and Goddess. Oh so I find out about the Halloween
dance or whatever. I guess they decided to not call it Halloween and so ppl can wear whatever they
want. I think thats cool if u dont believe in Halloween u can wear regular clothes or if u want u can
dress up in a costume. At least we dont have to wear school uniforms! We always have to wear white
tops and black or dark blue pants, shorts, skirts or skorts. Oh we can wear a dress too, but nothing
can be too short and tops have to have sleeves. I think its all silly. We call it Clone Middle School cuz
its like they want us to all look the same.
So I see Herbie and he just looks at me and all I say is tommorrow cuz I told him Id tell him if I could go
or not tommorrow. I dont know what the hell Im going to tell him!
So Becky and I have been waiting to see if were in the coven only its after 10 p.m. and they havent
called so I guess we wont know til tommorrow. I really though wed know tonight and I was supposed to
wait for Beckys call but I called her like 4 times trying to find out but she didnt know anything anyway.
Oh so after I come home from school I use the bathroom and guess what my period started. Ok thats
no big deal Ive had periods since I was 11 but guess what the toilet gets plugged up! And me and
Mommy cant get it fixed and have to wait until Daddy gets home! I mean we got another toilet but thats
not the point the point is my Daddy comes home and sees my period in the toilet and has to get the
toilet unstuck with it in there! Gross and embarrassing! I know my Daddys a plumber and I guess hes
seen everything but still would u want ur Daddy fixing the toilet with ur menstrual blood in it?
So this has been one crazy day and Im going to grab Mr Biggles go to bed and hide under the covers!
Wednesday October 17 2001
Dear Mr Biggles,
Today was the day! EvErYtHiNg happened today! Ok so really it was probably just me but a lot of
things Ive been worried about came to a head!
First when I got to school Herbie saw me right away. Its like he was waiting for me or something! But I
had it all figured out what I was going to say so I went up to him and felt real confident which I usually
dont. I tried the advice that Sting and Sharon and Feeling Therapist (Self Circled) gave me online and
said I wanted to go with him but only as a friend. I really explained it carefully so he wouldnt
misunderstand. Then it was like he said that was fine that was what he wanted anyway which now has
me really confused. Did I think he wanted me as a gf and he didnt? I thought I had it all under control
but now I dont know. Anyway Im going to the dance with Herbie so at least thats settled. Now I got to
figure out what to wear cuz its a week from Friday.
Then I see Jose flirting with Kichi like he was flirting with me and I was told he liked somebody else so I
see he was just flirting with me and there was nothing to it. I kind of like Jose even though hes a
troublemaker but oh well.
Then u can guess me and Becky were going CrAzY today hoping to find out about the coven. Ok so
when I get home I find out I got a phone call and its from Beckys Aunt Eva! So Im afraid to call back so
I get a drink and sit and stare at the phone and abuse Mr Biggles (no I dont really abuse him dont call
the ASCPA). So then finally I take a deep breath and get up the nerve to call and get a recording! Its
Aunt Eva talking real calmly and theres like this nature music in the background. So then theres the
beep and I leave a really stupid message like "oh, ah, hi, this is Lorien you called me so Im calling u
bye." Really StUpId! So then Im thinking I should call back and leave a better message and wishing I
could just erase the whole thing and start over. So while Im thinking should I call back and what am I
going to say the phone rings and I jump and practically bang my head against the ceiling!
So I say "hi" and she says "hello. Is this Lorien?" and I say "yes" and she says "this is Eva, Becky's
aunt. How r u doing?" and stuff like that. And she makes small talk and its wierd cuz part of me is
thinking "get to the point am I in or not?" and part of me is feeling calmer listening to her. So finally
she says they had a meeting and discussed things. And they decided Im IN!!
So Im real excited and Im just saying "really?" and "uh huh" while she talks, but then, get this, she
says that cuz Im under 18 they need parents permission! Its like I got hit in the chest by a huge chunk
of ice. Parent permission? Im like thinking my parents will NEVER give me permission to join! And Aunt
Eva is saying something I dont get and then I hear "its not because I and the other members feel that
way, but its for our own legal protection." And I say "I understand" or something like that and hang up
and feel like I want to die! Just go to sleep and not wake up.
So then finally I call Becky and shes home and she says "did she call?" and before I can say anything
she says "I got another call coming" so Im on hold for like forever and Im waiting to tell her the good
and the bad news which I guess r the same! And then finally she comes back on and says "Im in!" So I
find out for some reason Aunt Eva called me first which is wierd cuz shes Beckys aunt not mine. But
anyway that wasnt important right then so I told Becky my problem and said what do I do? I mean
Becky will have no problem getting permission.
So Becky and me work out this idea that just might work. They just need one parents signature on a
consent form I guess. Well Daddy reads things slow and takes his time and asks questions but
Mommy is frantic half the time. So I figure if I can get her in a good mood but when shes busy Ill just
say I need a permission slip signed to join a club and hopefully shell sign it without reading all of it! I
mean this seems like a plot from Gilmore Girls. Of course my Mommy and I are nothing like Lorelai
and Rory. Were probably more like Lane and Mrs Kim cuz my Mom is always telling me what to do and
not do.
So now I got to get the form and get my Mommy to sign it and soon cuz the ceremony is Oct. 31! So
now Im thinking about everything and I cant sleep!
Thursday October 18 2001
Dear Mr Biggles,
What a day!
Ok I go to school and things r normal until I get to Math. Its me and Jules and Samuru like last time
only Pamella is there too. Dale is my new tutor and I think I only get him on Thursdays. Last week was
the first time. So like things are ok until somehow I dont know when were doing Math but we start
talking about Halloween and the dance next week. Then suddenly Jules says "Im not going to any
dance there letting people dress like monsters and vampires and witches and thats evil." And Im like
speechless. And then I say "witches arent evil. They work with nature and the earth and healing." And
he says "the Bible says witches should be burned." I mean I cant believe this! I mean this is like the
21st century and hes still in the 8th! So Dale tries to calm us down and get us back to math and it
works I guess except Im still pissed about it. How can Jules be so ignorant? I mean some ppl dont
understand about witches but I mean hes talking burning! So even though Dale is talking math I cant
shut up so I say "do u really think we should be burning witches today? Thats murder!" And he says
"what about abortion? Thats murder." I mean whats that got to do with it? I think a woman has a right
to her own body and I sure dont think thats reason to burn ppl! I was so mad I didnt know what to say.
I calmed down later when I talked to Becky but now Im mad all over again!
Ok what Becky said was Jules not worth it dont blow up cuz hes STUPID so ok I wont. So then Becky
says think about Herbie instead. Ur going on ur first date! And Im like "Becky this isnt a date were just
going as friends!" And shes teasing me cuz shes already been on a date but my Daddy wont let me
go on a real date but this is just a school dance so its ok. And then Im thinking it is kind of a real date
cept I dont want Herbie as a bf and now I guess he doesnt want me as a gf either which is wierd cuz
hes been after me all year and most of last year too so I dont get it!
And still I got to figure how to get my Mom to sign the consent form for the coven but today was not a
good day she was all pissed about how she had to clean two houses at once or something and how
she and Daddy have to work so hard to support us and Bennys going to college and thats expensive
and so it wasnt a good time to ask her anything!
So when Daddy gets home I tell him me and Becky are going to the dance at school on Friday and I
need some money for a costume please? And them Mommy jumps in and says why dont u go make ur
own money and Im already pissed cuz of school and I say fine Ill go get a job and it gets worse from
there. And Brandy wont let me on the computer and I even need it to write something for school and
shes just chatting with guys naturally. I thought it would be cool being in Bennys old room with the
computer in here but really it SUCKS! At least Mommy and Daddy dont use it or Id never get on it. And
then Brandy says it should be in her room anyway shes older and I say its Bennys computer and
when he comes back hell want it in his room and she says well Bennys not here is he and I just storm
out only I cant go storm to my room were in my room!
So I say Im going to Beckys house and Mommy says clean ur room first and I say I cant Brandys in
there chatting with guys! I am so PISSED! So I go outside and just squeeze Mr Biggles til he turns blue
and ok I cry a little but so what I was pissed and couldnt do ANYTHING! My life SUCKS!
All right so I calmed down again. Thats all Ive been doing today is gettng pissed and calming down
and getting pissed again. I dont know why Mommys tirades are getting to me she does this all the
time. I guess Im just thinking about the dance and the coven and stuff. And burning witches. I mean
nobody talks about throwing Christians to the lions!
I miss Laura. I love Becky and shes real good at calming me down she doesnt take anything too
serious. Shes a really special friend. Laura was real good though at talking about things. I wish she
was on computer I cant call much cuz its long distance. Its like nobody I can talk to is here anymore.
Laura moved Ms. Adelman is dead. I cant even talk to Uncle Oz hes always gone somewhere. And
even Bennys at college. I should call Paula I havent talked to her in a while its hard now shes in high
school.
I think Im going to try to spend tommorrow night at Beckys. I got to get OUT OF HERE!
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LoRiEn
LoVeShAdE
I can go to the
Wiccan ceremony
and dress up for
Halloween too!
The toilet stops
when Im on my
period! Gross
and
embarrassing!
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Perry said if drugs
are so bad why
does the
government make
tons of money
taxing cigarettes
and alcohol and
why are three of
the biggest
companies in
America drug
companies?
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I got everything
wrong about
the Wiccan
coven!
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Let me tell u
about Beckys
great Aunt Eva.
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Herbie asked
me today if I
wanted to go to
the dance with
him!
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Im going to the
dance with
Herbie but just
as a friend!
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My parents will
NEVER give me
permission to join
a coven!
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I have to get
Mommy to sign
when shes not
paying attention!
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Jules says "Im not
going to any
dance there
letting people
dress like
monsters and
vampires and
witches and thats
evil."
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