| NoVeMbEr 12 - 16 2005 |
| Saturday November 12 2005 Dear Mr BiGgLeS I still havent heard from the artist! I hope hes not mad at me! Hes the one who searched for me but under my secret club name. Im with Daddy and my cuzins right now but Im going to Beckys. Oh and we got Thanksgiving and Christmas figured out. Daddy and my cuzins really want me to be with them for Thanksgiving so I guess Ill be here then and then be with Mommy and Matthew and everybody else for Christmas. I can see my cuzins and Daddy after Christmas although I might go somewhere with Mindys family. Really Id like to go with some of my other friends too. But of course I really love Mindy! I wish we could have our full moon esbat on Tuesday but Wendis family cant have it then. Her stepdad really wants us to have it there but with it being Wednesday I cant go which sucks. I never miss a ceremony! But I never miss Spanish either and thats Wednesday too. later I have bad news! Charlotte and Gus r breaking up! Charlotte and Kim and Rodney r moving out! Charlotte called me cuz I wont be going to Gus to babysit anymore. Thats is so sad! Im sorry it didnt work for them but really I think its better theyre separated. They still might work things out. Theyre staying at Tynes house for right now they went there last night. So I have to figure out what bus to take! I hope it doesnt totally mess up my schedule. I wish I had my own car I am so tired of taking the bus! I can drive anybody I want in a week but I dont have a car to drive them in! Im like the only high school student with a license and no car. Ok so I know thats not really true. But still I wish I had one! Ok Becky says get off computer! lol later Beckys having real problems at school. I know shell read this shell be back in here. Her grades r a lot lower and she thinks she might not even graduate! I hope she does. I want to help her but Im not here very much just on weekends. I wish we still lived close. I told her she should get tutoring cuz it can really help. I think shes drinking too much. She drinks a lot. She never drinks and drives so dont think that! But still. Drinking all the time isnt good for u. Ive been a little drunk just a couple times and really drunk once. But she gets drunk a lot! She smokes bud too especially with Cassie and Luisa but thats not as bad as alcohol. But u can use getting drunk or jacked as an escape. She lost her Daddy this year and her mom Kay is trying to sell their house. And of course her brother is gone to college and her oldest sister is married. And now Beth is gone to college a lot even though she still lives at home. later Crystal is such a hoochie! lol If u dont know Crystal is the name Becky has on her fake ID. She tried to make out with me again! Im sorry Becky ur one of my best friends but I am not lesbian! Of course she isnt either shes bi. We slept together like we always do and did cuddles and even sharies. But she wants to do more than that! I think its hard for her cuz Linda has a girlfriend. But they broke up years ago! But she still thinks about Linda. Theyre good friends but of course thats not the same. And u know shes done stuff with Cassie and ppl at Cassie and Mickys parties. Shes not seeing any guys other than Hunter cuz theyre still boyfriend and girlfriend. They were going to date other ppl but she said Hunter doesnt want her doing that. But he doesnt mind her seeing girls! She said he could see guys too but he wont cuz hes totally straight. I drank with Becky a little but not a lot. We both like alcopop but she likes beer and I straight up dont. We skinnydipped in the jacuzzi and we were the only ones so nobody knew what we were drinking! Sunday November 13 2005 Dear Mr BiGgLeS Becky and I went to church with my cuzins. Denise really wanted us to all go together but of course Daddy didnt. Hes Catholic but he never goes to church. I didnt think Becky would want to go but she did! She never goes to church either. Of course were both Wiccans and we try to live by our religion. But Wiccan ceremonies arent called church. I wanted to see Herbie this weekend but I couldnt. We went to Cassies but she wasnt there so we chilled with Micky and Luv. I really like Luv and of course Mickys cool too. Oh we had fun we played cards with this XXX rated deck! Its got both guys and girls and theyre doing everything on those cards! lol Luv is really like a hippie its like shes living in the 70s or something. But shes kewl. She believes in natural things just like Aunt Lizzie. later I finally figured out my bus schedule for tomorrow! Mindy helped me. Really going to Tynes house to babysit Kim and Rodney will be the same as going to Gus house was. I dont mean it will be the same I mean it wont take any longer to get there just like five minutes more so thats ok. Monday November 14 2005 Dear Mr BiGgLeS Today is the first day I babysat Kim and Rodney at Tynes house. Really she has a small house its like half a house so its not big enough for Charlotte and the two kids. But its just temporary. Charlotte doesnt know where shes going to move but she said shes definitely not going back with Gus. But I dont know. They still might work things out. later U wont believe what Mindy said shes finally ready to do! Mindys spending the night with me now cuz we swiched nights with Germana. Ill be with Germana on Thursday. Anyway Mindy cant stop thinking about what Germana said Austra used to do when she wore diapers. So guess what Mindy wants to do? She wants to wear a diaper! I am not kidding! I know it sounds weird but really its not. A lot of teens and adults like wearing diapers theres even websites about it. Mindy even emails this guy who dresses like a baby and wears diapers hes really sweet. Mindy almost wore one when she was a baby at a party but she didnt. She was too embarrassed. But I was like Mindy u dont have to be embarrassed with me! Ive been telling her that like forever. She was my baby in a past life so u know I changed her diaper lots of times. She said theres no way shed ever wear one at home but she could wear one here! Nobody would even be here but me and her. I know ppl who read my diary will know about it and thats why she didnt want to do it cuz she knows I write everything. But I told her I wont write about it if she doesnt want me to! But the only ppl who read my diary who know her IRL r Becky and Germana who already know about it, and Laura whos in Chicago and accepts ppl so Mindy doesnt have to worry about her. Oh and Harmony but u can tell him anything. He told us things that ppl he knows have done even though he wouldnt tell us who. And some of them were weirder than what Mindy wants to do! And really some adults have to wear diapers anyway. Shes embarrassed to buy diapers but I said Id go with her. Oh now she says she wants me to delete what I wrote and forget the whole thing! No way Mindy! Ur my special Tinkie and I love u and Im going to take care of u! Oh now shes giving me huggies shes sweet! Oh and by huggies I mean hugs I dont means shes giving me diapers! LMAO later Guess who was my little squeaky mouse! lol Oh shes says I was Ms Moaner! LMAO Tuesday November 15 2005 Dear Mr BiGgLeS I wish we could have our esbat tonight! I still dont know what Im going to do tomorrow. I never miss our branch ceremonies but I never miss Spanish either. I was going to go to Spanish but now Im not sure. Oh I forgot to write that the timeshare on Thanksgiving is not a prob cuz Mindys doing something with her family anyway. Theyre going to see her Aunt Hanah. Really Id like to see her too but I cant do everything! Germanas going with me and I think Becky is too but she has to check. Poor Deno is asking me if we got any guys to join our branch yet. He wants to go but he doesnt like being the only guy. We really need more guys I wish they hadnt left. I dont even know whats happening with Catovidas group. Id ask Olive but I never see her anymore either. Ill have to ask Germana. Wednesday November 16 2005 Dear Mr BiGgLeS I wish I could go to the esbat tonight! I really should go to Spanish its an important class. And when u only go to one class a week if u miss one class its like missing a whole week! And I might even miss next week cuz I got a whole week off from high school. I cant believe we got a whole week! But still my branch is having the ceremony at Wendis house and I really want to be there. But I can be in two places at once! later Charlotte and Kim and Rodney r still staying at Tynes house. I dont know how much longer thats going to last. Its weird cuz Kim and Rodney r acting like they dont even care. They didnt talk much about Gus b4 they moved out and they still arent. I dont know but its weird. Everybody in my branch went to the ceremony cept me. I wish I was there! |
| Copyright 2005 by Lorien Loveshade |
| My DiArY! |
| We had fun with Micky and Luv |
| U wont believe what Mindy said shes finally ready to do! |
| Charlotte and Gus r breaking up! |
| I wish I had my own car! |
| Crystal is such a hoochie! lol |
| Becky and I both went to church. |
| She was my baby in a past life so u know I changed her diaper lots of times. |
| Germanas going with me on the Thanksgiving timeshare and I think Becky is too. |
| Poor Deno wants to go to our Wiccan ceremonies but he doesnt like being the only guy! |
| I wish I could go to the esbat tonight! |
| I still havent heard from the artist! |
| Mindy is my special Tinkie and I love her and Im going to take care of her! |