| NoVeMbEr 26A 2005 |
| Saturday November 26 2005 (Part A) Dear Mr BiGgLeS Guess what? It froze outside last night! Nothing was frozen when we got up but still. Im glad its warm in here! I wanted to go fishing but its too cold in the morning so we might go in the afternoon. later Becky and Germana dont even know Im writing this but of course theyll see it later. I heard them talking when they thought I wasnt listening. Theyre planning something and I think I know what! Ive been saying I want to experiment some time and I think theyre setting something up! Ok I got to go but guess where? Bowling! Who goes bowling in the mountains? later Im writing this Sunday but this is what happened Saturday. You straight up wont believe it! Ok the first part youll believe. Abbie wanted us to go bowling so thats what we did. Really I had fun when I wasnt thinking about Abbie. Hes a good bowler but thats cuz he doesnt do anything else! Im not any good but thats ok neither is Becky! lol We didnt go fishing. Oh and Mommy and Abbie decided to go back. Really Im glad Abbie left but I wish Mommy would have stayed here longer without him. And of course I wish Matthew came too. We have four bedrooms its not like we dont have room! We went to an art museum which was really kewl even though Becky just wanted to rush through it. Thats ok shes hyper! Uncle Oz likes taking his time and I do too. I really want to learn more about art. I took an art class in high school and I think Ill take one in college. Luke is a really good artist and of course Rocky is too. I chat with Rocky all the time but Ill send an email to Luke when I get back home. Oh and we called Deno and wished him happy 17th birthday. I think he was really happy we called. Ok Ill get to what happened later! It was just Uncle Oz, Aunt Lizzie, Becky, Germana and I. We had smores which was fun and sat by the fireplace. I really like having a fire even though Im a water baby. Fire in a fireplace seems magical. Then we started talking about kids. Germana asked Aunt Lizzie why she didnt have any kids. Aunt Lizzie said it was cuz she didnt have a man to raise them with and it was too late for that now. Uncle Oz has Benny of course hes his son with Mommy but he never got to raise him. He said sometimes he really wishes he could have been more a part of Bennys life. That was so sad. I know Uncle Oz would be a great father for Benny and really he could have helped raise me too. But that straight up didnt happen. I love Daddy of course and without Daddy I wouldnt be born! But it would be kewl if Uncle Oz had been there too. Becky said she wants to have kids but not for a long time cuz shes still a kid! So then I said Becky ull always be a kid! lol She wasnt mad cuz she knew I was just kidding. But then Germana said something surprising. She said if she wanted to have kids now shed be ready! Really I guess maybe she is cuz she helped with Mexi and Austra. But I dont know. I babysit a lot of course I do it five days a week and Ive babysat for years. And I help take care of Matthew. But still thats not the same thing as having ur own. I think Ill want to have kids but not for a long time. So then I said “right now I have to be careful!” Of course Im still a virgin anyway so its not like Im going to get pregnant! lol But then Germana said “If you do things with girls you dont have to worry about that.” lol And then Aunt Lizzie said “thats true.” But then this was funny cuz Uncle Oz said “that didnt work for me!” LMAO And then Aunt Lizzie started asking about our relationships! later Ok I had to finish this later. This is about what Aunt Lizzie asked. Germana said shes not dating anybody regularly now but she likes going out. Becky talked about her relationship with Hunter. But then she said “He doesnt want me dating any other guys but he doesnt care if I see girls.” :o So then I was like Germana said u dont have to worry if u do things with girls and Becky said she can see girls? I was thinking whats up with that? Anyway I just said Im free right now so I talked about Herbie my ex boyfriend. Of course they all know him. I told about how I felt confused about it but knew I needed to be free. I wanted to get Uncle Oz and Aunt Lizzie talking about their relationship but we started talking about something else. They arent really a couple even though theyre together like everytime Uncle Oz is close. But they both can date other ppl. Anyway then Aunt Lizzie said she needed to get her beauty sleep so Becky and Germana and I went to our room. Then Becky brought out the booze! I knew she had it but we didnt drink anything the night b4. Then she said “why dont we smoke some bud” and I was like Becky! Cuz I knew Aunt Lizzie would know the smell of bud! I guess Aunt Lizzie wouldnt care but I dont know about Uncle Oz. But Becky didnt have any she was just kidding. So then we started drinking and talking about things and then they wanted to play Truth or Dare. And I was like why didnt we play Truth or Dare with Uncle Oz and Aunt Lizzie? Cuz really its better with a group. But later I learned why! We had a few questions and dares just silly stuff. But then Becky asked Germana “truth or dare” and Germana said “truth.” And I could tell Becky was trying not to grin so I knew she was up to something. So then Becky said “how many ppl in this room do u think r sexy?” And Germana didnt even hesitate she said “two.” :o Then Germana asked me truth or dare and this is weird. I thought I will definitely say truth I will NOT say dare. Cuz after what Germana said I was afraid to get a dare! But instead of saying truth I said dare! I dont know why. But the dare was funny. Germana said “Lorien, spank ur butt!” lol And Becky was like “who?” Then Germana said “I want Lorien to spank her own butt.” Ok first I have to tell u what we were wearing. Johnnie said I never say what everybody is wearing at sleepovers and thats true. But really its cuz its boring! Girls dont dress sexy at sleepovers. Everybody thinks we do but we dont. We did at the ones that Cassie and Lindsey used to have but those were different and that was a long time ago. And it was too cold to dress sexy in the cabin anyway! Becky wore yellow pajamas with Eeyore on the top and bottom, Germana wore light blue pajamas with a big green frog on her top and little green frogs on her pants, and I wore a long white sleepshirt with pink trim and the pink panther on it. Isnt that sexy? LMAO Anyway so I got on my hands and knees on the bed so I could spank myself! But then I dont know why I said this but I asked “can I do it through my sleepshirt?” But Becky said “no way.” But then I said “its Germanas dare not yours Becky!” But then Germana said “pull up ur sleepshirt.” So I did. But I wasnt naked underneath! lol I was wearing matching white boyshorts with the pink panther on front. So then I spanked my own butt! LMAO So then I asked Germana truth or dare and she said “truth.” I thought she was going to say dare but I was glad she said truth. Cuz then I asked her “did you and Becky plan something for tonight?” And she said “yes!” And then I was like “what?” But Becky said “just one question!” Then Germana said “you should have asked what we planned for tonight.” But I didnt think of that! Doh! But then Becky and Germana just asked each other truth or dare they wouldnt ask me! And I knew it was cuz they knew I would ask them what they planned. But then Germana asked Becky “truth or dare” and Becky said “dare.” Then Germana said “pat the pink panther.” And I was like what? Cuz the head of the pink panther on my sleepshirt was over my breasts and the one on my panties was over my crotch! So then I said “which one?” But Germana said “Ill let Becky choose.” Then Becky said “show” so I had to lift my sleepshirt up to my waist again! Then Becky just looked at me like she was deciding. But then she patted the pink panther on my chest! And I was like I know theyre up to something! So I said “u havent asked me truth or dare in a long time ask me.” So Becky did and I said “truth.” But then I was like me telling the truth wasnt going to tell me anything! lol But it would give me a chance to ask them a question after. But then Germana whispered to Becky and I was like what r they up to? Then Becky said “do u ever think about sucking on a girls breasts?” But b4 I could even answer Germana said “but not Mindy” so Becky said “Mindy doesnt count.” And I was like OMG! Cuz I knew why they were asking! When I spent the night with Germana a week ago I touched her breasts but just as an experiment. Germana talked about doing more but I wasnt ready! So really what Becky was asking me was “r u ready?” But I just said “I need more lemonade first!” Cuz I straight up didnt know what to say! So anyway I drank some more hard lemonade. Ok I should explain something. I do NOT think its a good idea to just get drunk and then do whatever and not even know what ur doing! U could get molested or even raped! But if ur with friends that u totally trust and u dont have to drive anywhere and theres something u really want to do but ur feeling too nervous then alcohol can help. But dont get drunk unless ur with ppl u can totally trust! And I wasnt really drunk anyway just a little. So then Germana was like “tell us!” So I said “yes.” Then Becky said “whose?” And I said “just one question!” LMAO So then I said “Germana truth or dare” and she said “truth” which is what I was hoping she would say. And then I said “what did u and Becky plan for tonight?” But Becky said “it has to be yes or no!” But I said “no it doesnt we didnt make that one of the rules!” And Germana said we didnt either. But then she said “we planned to do Truth or Dare and” and then she stopped. And I was like “and what?” Then Becky said “just one question!” Then I said “It is just one question Becky. Germana said “and” not me!” Then Germana said “and we wanted to see how far you would go.” :o Then it got really quiet even Becky was quiet. And then I cant believe I said this. But I said “I guess u dont know yet!” lol Then it was a couple of turns later and Germana asked me “truth or dare” and I said “truth.” And then she said “Lorien, how far will u go?” But I didnt know! So I just said “I dont know.” Becky said “thats not an answer” but I said “but its the truth. I really dont know.” Then I felt really weird. Its like I felt like I wanted to get out of there like I didnt even want to be there! But then I also felt like I wished something would just happen and I wouldnt have to think about it! I really wanted to do something but I was really nervous. So I didnt know what I wanted! Then Germana said “lets do something else.” I didnt know what but she said “lets share something we havent shared b4. Something about our feelings or attractions or a sexy secret fantasy. Or tell about something sexy we did.” I didnt know what to say but Germana said shed go first. She told us about when she got her tatoos. If u dont know she has a daisy that goes around each of her areolas. Her areolas are big but the tatoos make them look even bigger. She got them done when she was 15 but she told the guy who did them she was 18. She doesnt have a fake ID like Becky but I guess the guy never checked. Anyway she didnt show them to anybody at first cuz I guess they have to heal. But after that she really wanted to show them but she was like to who? She couldnt show her family of course not even Austra cuz she was only 7 then. Austras good at keeping secrets now that shes 10 but nobodys good at keeping secrets when theyre 7! Germana said she could show them to her girlfriends but she really wanted to see what a guy thought. So she was with her family in England just b4 school started. They go on vacation to Europe a lot. She got this blouse that was like a peasant blouse I guess it was white and it was really loose on her especially in front. She wore it off her shoulders and it had a square neckline that was low. Oh and she wore it with tight black shorts and let her hair hang down. If u dont know she has straight brown hair that reaches her butt. She said it was even longer then I guess cuz she was shorter. She said her breasts werent as big then she wore a B cup. But she wasnt wearing a bra that day! She waited until she saw a couple of guys walking toward her. This is when her family wasnt with her. Then she bent over right in front of them like she had to tie her shoe. She said she knows her breasts were totally exposed cuz she practiced in front of a mirror! lol She practices belly dancing that way too cuz then u know what everyone else sees. But they were talking and they didnt even notice! lol I was like I would have just given up but not Germana! So she waited cuz other ppl were going by. But then she saw this guy who was by himself who was about 25. She said he wasnt real handsome but he wasnt ugly either! lol She waited until he was getting close. He looked at her cuz of course she was hot! She smiled at him but this time she didnt act like she had to tie her shoe. She dropped her handbag and then bent over to pick it up. And of course her breasts were exposed even her daisy nipples! She stayed bent over like she was checking to see if anything fell out of her purse. Then she finally stood back up and looked at him. He was staring at her with his mouth open! LMAO Then she just smiled at him and walked away. Its funny cuz she said guys see breasts more in England than they do in America. But she said the secret is to make them work for it! lol I think thats why she isnt a nudist cuz when u see everything theres no mystery and then its not as sexy. Some girls get pissed when guys look at them when they bend over or cross their legs in a short skirt or something. But its like we dress that way so guys will look at us! LMAO Its like why else would u want to wear sexy underwear if u didnt want anybody to see it? lol Ok Im just kidding cuz really u can dress sexy for urself. If u feel sexy u feel good about urself. Anyway then it was my turn. And I was like what do I say? Cuz I write about my fantasies in my diary even though I dont tell all the details. And I write everything Ive done I have since I was 13 1/2. And Becky and Germana both read my diary. So I said that and Becky said “give us the details about ur fantasies!” But really I straight up didnt want to. Then Germana said “tell us something sexy that happened to u b4 u started ur diary.” I thought I could tell about my first French kiss when I was 12 but Becky said I already posted that. So then she said “tell about when the guy played with ur butt.” And I said “I wrote about that already.” But Becky said “no u didnt!” Then this is weird. But I thought about it and I wasnt sure I ever did write it! Oh and this happened when I got home but I checked and I never did! I couldnt believe I hadnt. Its a long story so Im writing that separate and I promise Ill post it. But I told about how Nate kissed me on the lips and played with my butt a little through my clothes when I was in fifth grade. I think Ill call the story “Nate.” Then it was Beckys turn. She talked about something that happened when she was 3. She said there was this boy who was friends with Joni her older sister. I think they were in the same class so I guess he was about 11. They were working on some project or something for school together Becky doesnt remember what. But Becky said one day she was in the room alone with him for just like 10 seconds. She doesnt remember what he was wearing but she remembers she was wearing yellow pajamas with bears on them. She said like all of a sudden he just pulled her pajama pants down in back and kissed her on her naked butt! It was real quick and then he pulled them back up. Becky said she didnt know why he did it but she thought it was funny and giggled. She wanted him to do it again but he never did. So that was weird cuz Becky and I both had a story about a guy who did something with our butt! lol Of course Becky knew my story she just didnt know the part about what I used to do with Speedo but thats in the story about Nate. Speedo is a big black stuffed horsey I used to keep on my bed but then I put him away in a big box. I have another story about something I did with Speedo that Ill write later. Anyway I never heard Beckys butt story b4! And I didnt know about what Germana did after she got her tatoos. Ok now Ill get to the part I know u want to read! |
| Copyright 2005 by Lorien Loveshade |
| My DiArY! |
| Becky brought out the booze! |
| Germana said "Lorien, spank ur butt" |
| I know Becky and Germana r planning something but I dont know what! |
| We went to an art museum which was really kewl. |
| We talked about having kids. |
| Germana said u dont have to worry if u do things with girls and Becky said she can see girls? |
| Girls dont dress sexy at sleepovers! lol |
| Then Becky said "Show" |
| “Lorien, how far will u go?” |
| If theres something u really want to do but ur feeling too nervous then alcohol can help. But only with ppl u trust! |
| “What did u and Becky plan for tonight?” |
| Let's tell about something sexy we did. |
| Then it was my turn. |
| It froze outside last nght! Im glad its warm in here! |
| I asked her "Did you and Becky plan something for tonight?" |