Thursday August 11 2005
Dear Mr BiGgLeS
I wish I didnt break up with Herbie! That was so stupid! Now I dont
have Herbie and Daddys moved out and Allens kissing Becky! Dont
any guys like me?
Mindy says thats stupid. Ok she didnt say stupid she just said thats
not true. She said Deno likes me but really I dont know. I thought he
would call me right after I broke up with Herbie but he didnt. Theres
some guys who know me online who were macking on me but I dont
know if theyre serious. Fallon said I should just ask them especially
one of them but I dont know. And really they dont know me IRL
anyway so it doesnt even count. And they arent even doing it
anymore!
But how can I go right back to Herbie? Poor Herbie I broke up with
him am I going to go back after a week and say I want to get back
together? Thats just stupid! And its playing with his feelings which is
totally unfair. I never should have broken up with him I knew it was a
mistake! Why did I do it! And I wish Becky hadnt come on vacation
with us!
Ok Im sorry I said that and I should delete it but I wont. Im sorry
Becky its not ur fault Im just upset. Its not ur fault guys like u and
they dont like me. Becky is more fun than me and shes a lot prettier
and shes thinner. Her butts smaller and her boobs r bigger than mine.
She can wear size 9 tops and size 3 pants! I wont say what sizes I
wear but she doesnt care who knows it. Why should she care she has
a great bod! She can wear girls panties and womens bras. I can wear
womens panties and girls bras! Ok really I wear womens bras but Im
smaller than an A cup which sucks. So I could wear girls bras!
Kimberly the girl I babysit is only 9 1/2 and shes bigger upstairs than
me! And shes sexier than I am too.
later
Ok I wanted to fix what I wrote but Becky and Mindy said leave it
cuz its funny! I meant Becky is sexier than me not Kimberly!
Kimberlys just a kid! LMAO Really its good cuz it made me laugh.
I talked to Becky b4 I let her see what I wrote about her. I told her
really I am totally glad she came on vacation with me. I was just
upset. She said she just kissed Allen a few times it didnt mean
anything. Really I dont care anyway. She said I can have Allen but I
dont want him! Allens just a friend thats all. I told her if she wants
him she can have him I straight up dont care.
And then poor Mindy was saying she doesnt have a boyfriend either!
But I know Mindy will. Shes very pretty and shes sweet and shes
very smart and very talented. She thinks guys dont like her cuz she
looks like a little girl even though shes 14. But she really doesnt look
10 anymore she looks more like 11 now so thats good. She still wears
girls clothes but I know shes growing! She doesnt really have boobs
yet but shes growing bigger buttons! lol And shes got two lap hairs
now. So shes growing into a little hottie!
And Becky says lots of guys like small cute Japanese girls! Theyre
really popular. Mindys just one fourth Japanese but she looks half.
Cassie even said shed be hot in movies when she turns 18 but of
course she doesnt want to be in those kinds of movies. But still it
means shes sexy!
Ok cut it out Becky! Becky just said now thats shes 21 she wants to
star in those movies! :o Silly girl. I know shes just kidding. She wants
me to call her Crystal but her names not Crystal its Becky! lol Ok
really Im calling her Crystal and so is Mindy but Im not going to call
her that in my diary! If I do nobody will know who Im talking about!
lol
later
I felt better and now I feel worse! Guess what Allen and Becky r
doing? Theyre on a date! I am so mad. Ok Im not really mad at Becky
cuz I said she could have him and I straight up do not want him! Hes
too wild and loud and hes a partier and I straight up am not. I like
parties but not getting drunk or jacked all the time. And Beckys buying
him beer! That is so weird cuz hes 16 and shes really 17. And Yvette
doesnt even care!
Mindy and I r going to spend the night at Shirleys house I have to get
out of here! Im like when Becky and Allen get back theyre coming
back to the same house! Theyre both staying here so whats going to
happen tonight? Is Josh going to spend the night at Halseys or
something and then Ill hear Allen and Becky in Allens bedroom doing
something all night? I wish I didnt even come on vacation! And we
didnt even do anything today it was totally boring!
later
Our plans changed again! Really Mindy helped cuz she talked to
Yvette whos her aunt of course. Tomorrow were going camping!
Yvette wanted to go somewhere else she always wants to go
someplace different but I want to go to the same lake we went to last
time. It means we cant go to both the rodeo and Six Flags but I dont
care. Whatever we go to Ill just see Allen and Becky making out with
each other! I wish Hunter came with us too I wonder what hed think?
Becky says they made an agreement but I dont know. Really I do not
care! Becky can do what she wants and Allen can do what he wants I
straight up dont care.
Oh and Mommy called again wanting me to come home! Like Im
supposed to fly home early? It cost like $100 to fly back but thats cuz
I got my tickets early. If I fly back tomorrow or something it could
cost me $500! I am not spending $500 cuz Mommy is feeling lonely!
If she doesnt want to feel lonely she should go get counseling and get
back together with Daddy!
Anyway heres our plans. Tomorrow were using the camper I think its
the same one we used last time. Other ppl r going too but I dont know
who. Maybe Becky and Allen r going somewhere else together I dont
know and I dont care! I think Dolly and Halsey r coming with us. But
guess who else is coming? Harmony! If u dont know he changed his
work schedule so he could go with us. We thought we were going to
Six Flags tomorrow but he said thats ok. He doesnt really care about
Six Flags he just wants to see me. Isnt that sweet? Oh of course he
meant everybody not just me! LMAO He cant spend the night cuz he
has to work Saturday and then Sunday. But hes off Monday and thats
our last day here! So maybe he can spend the night Monday. Really
our last day is Tuesday but we wont have time Tuesday cuz were
flying back.
later
Tonight was sweet! Shirley is a lot of fun. Shes a lot like Yvette and a
little like Aunt Lizzie! And Martie is fun too shes a cute kid. She told
us like ten times “I’m almost 6!” lol She is totally full of energy.
Shirley calls her Hoofer cuz her feet r always moving! lol Its weird
cuz we saw Shirley last time but we really didnt get to know her very
well. She really likes birds and horses and of course I like horses too.
She works at this place that packs things and ships them all over the
world. I dont remember what its called.
Mindy and I spent the night at her house. Its small it has a little living
room, two bedrooms but she said only one of thems really a bedroom,
a kitchen and a bathroom.
It was funny cuz Martie said we could sleep in her room and shed
sleep with her Mommy. So she kept bringing us toys so we wouldnt
be lonely! lol She has a bunkbed and of course Im used to sleeping in
a bunkbed. I dont know why she has a bunkbed for one kid I guess
thats for visitors. Anyway she put so many toys on the beds there
wasnt room for us! lol So then Mindy said “Well be fine as long as we
have our pacifiers!” lol
Oh then this was totally kewl. Even though they had rain its been
really dry so Shirley said they had a water shortage. So Mindy said we
could help save water by taking a shower together! I was really
surprised Mindy would say that! Of course we do that all the time but
not at Shirleys house! But Shirley said it was ok and Mindy told me
later that Shirley already knew we did that at Yvettes. I thought maybe
Becky and Mindy and I could finally take a shower together but that is
straight up not going to happen! Not when shes with Allen! Ok I wont
talk about that anymore cuz I really dont care anyway. She can take
showers with Allen if she wants to I dont care!
Anyway this was cute cuz Martie went in the bathroom to get the
water hot for us! lol We wanted to take a bath together but really the
bathtub didnt look very clean. I guess it was I guess its just stained.
Anyway we took a shower and that was really nice. We washed each
other with sponges which was sweet thats what we usually use. Of
course we didnt bring the ones from home we got new ones. lol I
really like doing that with Mindy. I felt totally relaxed. Then we dried
each other off and went to bed. I really wished we could sleep
together and do cuddles but the beds were too small. Mindy slept on
top and I slept on the bottom. It was funny cuz Mindy was a little
nervous at first about sleeping on top and I was like she sleeps in a
treehouse all the time! lol But she said its different cuz in the treehouse
ur inside so its almost like ur on the ground. Really thats true. Anyway
I said I would switch with her but she wanted to do it. Its weird too
cuz the time is two hours later here but I fell asleep right away!
Friday August 12 2005
Dear Mr BiGgLeS
Guess where I am right now? At the lake! Its the same one we went
to last time but there is straight up more ppl here this time! We have
two camps and two campers! Theres Mindy, Becky, Yvette, Allen,
Vickie, Josh, Dolly, Marcy, Pam, and me. Pam is Marcys mother, and
Marcy used to be married to the brother of Yvettes ex-husband get it?
And guess whos coming today? Harmony!
later
Ok this was really weird. Its like right when I wrote Harmony he
showed up! lol This was funny cuz I asked Mindy did u finally give
him a KOTL? and she said no cuz shes still chicken. So then Harmony
said she could kiss him anywhere she saw skin. So then Becky told
Mindy ull have a lot more places to kiss if u wait til he takes off his
clothes! LMAO Then she said she meant when he put on his
swimtrunks! But we starting listing all the places u could kiss him! lol
So then Yvette said shed better kiss him now while it was safe so she
kissed him on the lips! And then Dolly did it too! It was funny. I think
Marcy was even going to and she just met him! But Dolly beat her so
we said she had the fastest pregnant lips in Texas! LMAO
Oh and u straight wont believe what Dollys T shirt says. It says “I
Love Intercourse, Pa!” I couldnt believe it! Cept it has a heart instead
of the word love but of course that means love. But guess what?
Intercourse is the name of a city in Pennsylvania! LMAO And Pa
means Pennsylvania. Becky wants one too but Id be afraid to wear it!
And of course its totally funny cuz Dollys extremely pregnant! lol
Ok were going swimming so I have to stop typing. I cant take the
computer for a swim! lol
later
Allen and Becky cant keep their hands off each other! Its like theyre
attached at the hip or something! I still havent even heard about their
date last night Becky hasnt even told me! Whats up with that?
They were doing this stupid game all day where they tried to kiss each
other in weird positions. Like Becky on a bench, Allen hanging upside
down, stuff like that. Everybody was getting totally tired of it! If they
want to kiss each other all day they should do it somewhere else!
Ok I wont talk about that anymore. Really I had fun and I dont care
whos kissing Allen anyway. I did not come on vacation so I could
kiss Allen!
First Ill tell u what everybody was wearing in the lake cuz everybody
always wants to know. Ill start with the guys this time cuz there was
only three of them in our group. Joshs trunks were black with big
blue flowers, Allen wore these trunks that were black with red shapes
that looked a little like flowers and a little like stars, and Harmony
wore trunks with this pattern that was black and green and blue.
Guess what Dolly wore? A black bikini! I couldnt believe shed wear a
bikini when shes totally pregnant but really that was kewl. U shouldnt
feel ashamed of ur body and Harmony said that too. Really when he
said it I dont know if he meant her or me but he always encourages
ppl. Mindy wore this suit that was like a bikini but the panty had an
attached skirt and it was pink with black and blue shapes. Vickie wore
a one piece that was azure with white trim it was really cute. Becky
wore her yellow bikini that has purple and red flowers, and I wore my
tankini thats lavendar with pink trim.
We did my favorite pool game where u ride piggy back and try to
knock the other team off. I wanted to ride on different partners but I
didnt even get to ride on Allen! Really I didnt care. I rode on Harmony
twice and guess what? Becky and Allen beat us the first time but the
second time we totalled them! lol I pulled Becky right off it was a
dismount splash! LMAO I think Mindy rode on Harmony and Allen
but of course Allens her cuzin. Oh and this was funny. Dolly said
who could she ride? lol So Harmony said he didnt think he could hold
two riders on his back at the same time! lol Of course he meant her
and her baby. But then Becky said maybe they could both ride in
front! :o Becky was saying things like that all day and so was Allen.
Anyway then we did this thing where u tried to swim between ppls
legs. It was funny cuz Harmony said he better not try to get between
girls legs cuz hed get in big trouble! lol Of course he was just kidding.
It was funny cuz Allen tried swimming between my legs but he
moved too high and ran into me and almost knocked me over! lol He
said he was sorry but I didnt care. Mindy is really good at it. She
swam under Allen and Harmony and was almost as low as their
knees! Then Dolly said she wanted to try it and I was like no way! lol
Shes funny but sometimes she says really silly things. Then I couldnt
believe Allen said this. But he said she looked like somebody tried to
swim between her legs and made it in! :o I could not believe hed say
that! But she just said “yep” it didnt even bother her any. Really thats
good cuz she shouldnt be embarrassed.
But heres something that was embarrassing it was almost a real
problem! Some of us went to these stores but Allen and Becky
decided to stay back at the lake so who knows what they were doing.
Really I dont care! Ok so heres what happened. We were in this store
that had clothes and jewelry and souveniers. Really it didnt have a lot
but some things were kewl. But then guess what Dolly said? She said
I think I just had a labor pain! And I was like OMG shes going to have
her baby! And then nobody knew how to get to the hospital! I could
not believe it! So we called and found out. But then Dolly said she
didnt think it was her baby it was just a cramp like from swimming or
something.
Anyway I got this T-shirt that has a map of the lake on it. So if
somebody wants directions all they have to do is look at my chest! lol
later
Ok I have to finish this!
This was really funny. Guess what Harmony gave us? Pacifiers!
LMAO We were joking that ppl wouldnt smoke cigarettes if they just
had pacifiers so Harmony got us some! Mindy said we should get one
for my Mommy! So Harmony said he had extra so she could have one
too! lol And he got a lot of ppl using them! Even Yvette did for a little
bit! lol We wore them around our necks and it worked cuz u cant
smoke when ur sucking on a pacifier! lol
But then this was weird. Becky was really being nasty cept she still
says her name is Crystal. I want Becky to go back to California with
me but Crystal can stay here! Anyway then Allen was saying “Crystal
u want to suck on my pacifier?” And Becky was like “I dont know
Allen how big is it?” Stuff like that. That is so middle school! They
were being nasty with them and Im sorry but thats immature. I was
like grow up! So then we said Becky was being a baby she needed a
pacifier! LMAO
I think Ill give everybody something b4 I go back but I dont know
what. They got a lot of shops close and theres some kewl stuff. And
tomorrow were going to Six Flags! Yay! I wish Harmony could go
with us but he has to work.
Anyway Harmony had to go but I didnt want him to leave! Hes like
the only guy who knows me IRL who really cares about me. Nobody
else cares. And I cant even see him cept when Im on vacation.
Ok I just read what I wrote and its stupid. I want to delete it but I
wont cuz Mindy says leave it so I can read my thoughts. Harmony is
really special hes a great friend. But I know other guys care about me.
Herbie does of course. I broke up with him he didnt break up with
me! I never should have broke up with him. I called him and told him
I missed him. He said he really misses me too! I wish he came with
me. Ok I know that sounds totally weird. I just broke up with him and
now I wish he came on vacation with me! But breaking up was a
totally stupid idea.
Oh Mindy just said my Daddy cares about me too and of course he
does. Oh and so does Uncle Oz. Ok Mindy I dont need a list of every
guy who knows me! lol Mindys sweet shes really helping me.
Oh and guess what she did? She finally gave Harmony a KOTL! lol Its
like everybody else has! I told her he said she could kiss him
anywhere on his skin and lips count as skin! Really it was sweet.
Oh and this changed too. We were going to see Allen and his band
play tonight but they had the night off! Its like everything keeps
changing u never know whats going to happen around here.
I still dont know what Becky and Allen did last night. Becky always
tells me about her dates so why isnt she telling me now?
later
Now I dont know what Allen and Becky did Friday night! And Mindy
got sick! She almost threw up! She didnt and she felt better later but
still. It changed things but Ill write that for Saturday. Im writing this
Saturday but this is what happened Friday.
Marcy and Pam have a lot bigger camper than the one Yvette got
which really isnt hers. Marcy and Pam got in this argument cuz
Marcy wanted to stay and Pam didnt. Thank God they didnt argue all
night! Anyway so a lot of us stayed there. It was Marcy, Pam,
Mindy, Vickie, and me. Dolly didnt spend the night so Yvette, Allen,
Josh, and Becky spend the night in Yvettes camper. But Im like where
did everybody sleep? It has a bigger bed and a middle sized bed and a
small bed. So where were Allen and Becky?
Copyright 2005 by Lorien Loveshade
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LoRiEn
LoVeShAdE
I know Mindy will get
a boyfriend!
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Tomorrow were
going camping!
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How can I go back
to Herbie?
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Its not Beckys fault Im
just upset! Guys like
her and they dont like
me!
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I couldnt believe shed
wear a bikini when shes
totally pregnant
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Allen and Becky cant
keep their hands of
each other!
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Dolly said I think
I have a labor
pain!
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If somebody wants
directions all they
have to do is look at
my chest!
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Tomorrow were
going to Six Flags!
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I felt better and
now I feel worse!
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Do any guys
care about
me?
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Mindy got sick she
almost threw up!
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