Saturday September 18 2010
Dear Mr BiGgLeS
Mindy was pissed at me! She said if I dont tell Harmony right now she will! Really I know its cuz she
loves me but still. And I said Ill tell him later today and she said Im telling him now and then she went! I
was like OMG! But really I was glad I just hoped he wouldnt be mad at me.
So then Harmony says Mindy says u like me do u? I was like what do I say? And I said of course I like
u. Then Harmony was like how much do u like me. And I was like how can I answer that?
So then he said hed tell me how he felt and then I could tell him how I felt. So I said ok. He said youve
been very important to me for a long time. Youre a very special girl. I like talking to you, like being
creative with you, like being with you, and like kissing and holding you. If youd like to do more of all of
that I wont mind in the slightest. But I dont want to interfere with ur relationship with anyone else
because I deeply respect u. It was so sweet!
So I said I dont have a boyfriend in California and I wont be here very long just on vacation. So then
he got on his knees and I was like OMG is he going to propose to me? But he took my hand and
looked me in the eyes and said Lorien, will you be my sother for the rest of your vacation? And I said
of course! So then we kissed and it was a gentle kiss it was so sweet. So were vacation sothers!
later
I have to tell u what happened it was awesome! I soo wish I talked to Harmony earlier. We wre holding
hands like the whole time. Harmony is so sweet.
Crissy was being a total helicopter. I was like cant u fly somewhere else? She was around Harmony
and me like all the time and asking us questions. Finally Harmony said Dave needed her so finally we
got away from her. I like her shes cool I just dont need her hanging around all the time. She was
totally jealous about Harmony even though he didnt think so. But I know she was.
Harmony wanted to give me a backrub but he couldnt cuz of his injury poor Harmony. And he gives
great foot massages. He knows reflexology which relaxes ur feet and ur whole body. He thought Id be
disappointed and I was like Im happy just to be with u!
I asked Harmony about Jane but he said they arent sothers theyre just good friends and sometimes
with benefits. Of course I knew that and Im not jealous at all. Well see Jane and her kids tomorrow at
the fair. Really they arent her kids theyre her grandkids cuz shes raising them for her daughter.
Oh and guess what? We went to this bookstore and they might want to carry our book! I mean Ek-sen-
trik-kuh Discordia: The Tales of Shamlicht of course. Its not totally finished yet but it will be soon. Im
glad cuz weve been working on it over five years! We talked to Pepemil whos assistant manager. He
knows Fiona and Lisa and Dave cuz they go there all the time. I think hes Indian Im not sure. Anyway
if we can get the book in bookstores that would be awesome!
This was funny but Buddy had the cloved lemon I think Lisa made. It had a heart on each side made
with cloves it was cute. Buddy was just holding it and looking at me so I asked him what he wanted. He
said do you think your boyfriend would mind if I gave this to you? I said of course not so he did. So I
puckered and he gave me a kissie on the lips but I could tell he wanted to do more.
I didnt know if it was ok so I asked Fiona later. She said they believed it was better for kids to try
things at home where they had an adult to help them if they had a problem or questions. Really I think
thats good too. Anyway later Harmony gave me the lemon and we kissed. So Im still holding the lemon
and Harmony started kissing me again. Then he said he didnt need a lemons permission to give me a
kiss! lol Hes really funny. So later I gave it to Buddy and he said how should I kiss u? And I said I gave
it to u so its ur decision. So he kissed me and he just like stuck his tongue out a little and that was it.
But he was really happy so it was sweet. I did Frenchies with Tyler later too but he wasnt so sweet! lol
j/k Really Tylers cool.
I really wanted to ride Harmony piggyback in the pool but of course he couldnt cuz of his injury. He
couldnt hold on to me. Really I didnt want to play but he wanted me to so I did. Mindy rode on my back
and we went against Crissy who rode on Tyler. Mindy went in the water splash! Dave gave Randi a
ride on his back but of course we didnt try to knock her off. Then Crissy was like I want to ride on
Harmony this time. I was like Harmony cant hold anybody on his back silly! She was so jealous but I
was like Im not riding Harmony either! She needs to get a BF. Then Tyler said if Crissy wanted to ride
on somebody else he let me ride on his back so I did. Crissy rode on Buddy but they both went in the
water. It was funny cuz Crissy said nobody can knock Tyler over so a lot of it tried it all at once! It took
like five ppl but we finally knocked him over.
Ok this was the best part. Harmony and I went on a date! Mindy kept saying we should see Scott
Pilgrim vs. the World and I know why she said it. Its cuz she thinks Mary Elizabeth Winstead who plays
the girl looks like me. And I was like Mindy and she has evil exes who attack her boyfriend like do u
want Harmony thinking that? Of course I was just kidding. I saw it before but it was a cool movie.
Harmony likes sitting close but not too close so I let him choose where wed sit. He thought I liked it
where the guy sits on the aisle and I sit on his right so thats how we sat. We got popcorn and I got a
Diet Coke but they dont have the contest anymore with the scratch off tickets. I already won two free
popcorns but they said I couldnt use the tickets until next month. Harmony got Sprite. I said u arent
drinking lean r u? He didnt know what I meant but I was just kidding its Sprite with drugs in it. Harmony
doesnt take any drugs he doesnt even drink cept like once a year. I dont drink much either.
He said he loved me but he didnt want to make out during the movie cuz he gets totally into it. I
thought of Herbie right away cuz hes that way too. Really Harmonys a lot like Herbie but hes also like
Uncle Oz cuz hes experienced and self-confident too. But hes quiet about it he doesnt show off like
Fernando did. Harmony doesnt look like Herbie but their eyes are exactly the same color blue. If u
dont know Herbie was my second BF and really he was the best. I miss him.
Harmony said he needed to do more walking and I like walking too so we went for a walk. I dont walk
much after dark but it was nice walking with him. He did this thing that was sweet and funny too. Every
time we got to a stop sign or a stop light he said we had to stop and kiss. Hes sweet. One time I was
soo sorry cuz I bumped him where he got hurt. He acted like it didnt bother him but I know it did. When
he had to pick up something or open something we had to stop holding hands or he couldnt do it.
Poor Harmony. But hes getting better.
Of course Mindy wanted to know everything and then said he had to see pictures of Mary Elizabeth
Winstead cuz Mindy thinks she looks like me. I was like Mindy we just watched her for two hours he
doesnt have to see her pictures! Then Harmony said Id look a lot like her if I dyed my hair purple! lol It
was funny.
Ok I know what u want to know. Did we sleep together? Mindy and Fiona set it up so Harmony and I
would have our own bedroom. Harmony thought I did that but I didnt! Mindy and Fiona are both
matchmakers. Really I was nervous. I slept with a guy I was dating before but it was a problem. When
a guys lying down his ears stop hearing the word no! Of course Harmony and I slept together Friday
but that was with other ppl there so that was totally different. It was like sleeping with ur best friend not
with ur BF.
Harmony asked what I wanted and I straight up didnt know what to say. He said he thinks its good to
decide how far u want to go and to discuss it before u get all turned on. Really that makes sense cuz
when ur horny u straight up cant think straight! So finally I said Im not ready to give up my V-card. Not
yet. Harmony said he was cool with that and I squeezed him tight. But then I was like I hope he knows
that means upstairs and downstairs r ok as long we dont go all the way.
later
I had to check with Harmony to see what I could post! Some of his friends r going to read this and I
wont give away his secrets. But he said I can write whatever I want but hell look at it first. Ill look at his
too but really Im not worried about it. We got a small bedroom its really a guest room I think. Its a nice
bedroom it has a ceiling fan with a big round light and a coffee brown rug on the floor with a Celtic
pattern in black. Theres a small dresser with a lamp and a figurine of a smiling nun in a black and
white habit. It was funny cuz Harmony turned the nun around so she couldnt spy on us! lol
I said so what should we wear? And Harmony said he was thinking a sheet. I didnt know what he
meant at first like wear a toga? But then of course I knew what he meant so we had a sheet over us
and nothing in between us. I loved doing cuddles with Harmony. He said skin to skin is so much better
and I feel that way too. He couldnt give me a massage cuz of his injury but he touched me all over.
Some guys grab ur boobs like theyre baseballs or something. But hes so gentle it tickles! And he
gave me little kissies like everywhere. It was so nice. Of course I gave him kissies too! Most guys just
do what they have to so a girl gets excited so they can do what they want. But Harmonys really
affectionate. He said hed rather do cuddles than have sex and really I believe him. Most guys arent
like that.
But then I fell asleep. Poor Harmony! I felt really bad when I woke up but he said that was fine he liked
that cuz then he could just look at me. It was so sweet I got teary eyed. Then he started touching me
again and I dont know what happened but I started getting totally horny. This was funny cuz I told him
that and that made him horny too I could tell! ;) And it was like I almost wanted him inside me. Really I
did. But I knew Harmony wouldnt do it cuz he wouldnt want me doing anything Id regret.
Then he acted almost like he was a little boy and said Lorien I wanna do tasties. He was so silly.
Really that did not make me horny but what he did after that did! He couldnt do it very long cuz of his
injury but thats ok cuz we did it together. Then this was weird but I thought I wasnt ready to cum then
all of a sudden I came!
Ok he said I could write everything and he said hes not embarrassed. But I tried taking care of him
and it didnt happen poor Harmony! He said hed been excited so long poor Johnny was worn out!
Thats what he calls his little friend Johnny. My downstairs is called Little Mūn or Little Luna Mindy
named her. But Harmony said he had a wonderful time anyway.
Sunday September 19 2010
Dear Mr BiGgLeS
When we got up they said were going to play musical showers. The way the game works is this. Two
people go in their main shower which has a bathtub and two shower heads. When ones through they
get out and somebody else gets in. The game has only two house rules. One is you cant play forever
cuz ull use up all the water and nobody else will get in there. The other rule is were family not lovers.
That u do another time. Its all platonic with no exceptions.
I like baths more than showers but this was cool. Buddy and Crissy went first, then Buddy came out
and Dave went in. Crissy came out and Mindy was shy but Fiona was like its ur turn so she went in. It
was funny cuz Crissy said she needed more shower time silly girl. They said thats why they made the
rule cuz shed stay in the shower all day long. She likes showers like I like baths! Then Dave came out
and Lisa went in, so it was Mindy and Lisa. Then Mindy came out and said Fiona and Fiona went in. It
was funny cuz then I knew they did it so Id be with Harmony. Then Lisa came out and I went in. I take
baths with Mindy a lot and of course Ive taken showers with other girls. Then Lisa went out and
Harmony came in. But guess what? He said Fiona told everybody the shower game was over consider
the door locked and dont bother us. Fionas cool.
I like bathing with a sponge but Harmony just uses soap on his hands. He said Id like being washed
that way so thats what he did! It felt very nice. So then I said hed like a sponge so I washed him with
my sponge. Really I got a new one just for vacation u dont want to travel with a wet sponge! Then he
said Johnny recuperated and his hair needed a shampoo. So thats what he got! Then he got rinsed
off and got the derb. ;) Then Johnny gave me a shower! LMAO
Really it was sweet. Harmony can be totally sweet and really funny.
later
Its taking me forever to write this. Right now Im feeling sad cuz I might not see Harmony for a long
time. But I have to tell u what happened the rest of Sunday. I promise Ill make this part short.
We went to this Ren Fair thats not too far from where Harmony lives. Its not a very big one but it was
cool. Ok I should tell u who went. It was Harmony, Mindy, Dave, Lisa, Fiona, Crissy, Buddy and me.
Really I wanted to drive with just Harmony but they said it would be too crowded. So Harmony rode
shotgun with me, Mindy sat in back on the left and Buddy sat in the middle and Crissy sat in back on
the right. So really we were crowded!
Of course Mindy and I didnt have costumes but everybody else did! But they loaned us something we
could wear. I wont describe what everybody wore cuz it will make this too long.
later
Im adding this part here cuz Harmony says I should at least describe what I wore. The part after this I
wrote before. It was cool cuz they had clothes we could borrow but of course they didnt have
everything. Really I wanted to be a wench but they didnt have anything that would fit. Ive got small
boobies so to get cleavage Id have to wear a corset up to my neck! lol Anyway they said thered be a
lot of pirates and girls can be pirates too! So I wore a puffy V neck white blouse with long sleeves, a
black vest and black pants. I really wanted black boots but I didnt have any and of course I wasnt
going to buy some just for a costume. And I didnt want to be walking around on dirt in high heels all
day so I just wore black flats with black stockings. And I wore a red scarf in my hair so Id have some
color.
I wrote the rest of this earlier
We saw these bellydancers who were really good. Some of them even danced with swords on their
heads and they werent attached! It was cool too cuz most of the belly dancers werent skinny some
were pretty big but they danced anyway. Thats great cuz its good exercise and its fun to watch. Mindy
and I like bellydancing even though we dont do very much.
There was this guy who did this rope trick that was funny. We didnt see his whole show though. We
wanted to get a CD that Harmony played for us before but we didnt find anybody selling it so well get
it online.
These pirates had a battle which was cool, but their cannon was really loud. Its like even if u knew it
was coming it made u jump. Poor Mindy didnt like it at all. So when we were going near where the
cannons were Harmony would ask them if they were going to fire them soon. Harmonys really sweet.
Oh and I totally got teased. Harmony got this big sausage on a stick. I didnt know If I wanted one or
not so I asked if I could taste it first. Then everyone started teasing me about eating Harmonys
sausage! Really the guy who did it the most we didnt even know. Harmony thinks he worked for the
fair selling sausages and was drumming up business. It was funny but a little embarassing. Its like
would u like to be introduced as the girl who eats her boyfriends sausage in public? lol But I know
thats the way they joke at Ren fairs.
They had a pub that was fun. U got food and drink there they even had beer which really I dont like.
Ppl sang and I didnt know any of the songs but everybody else did! Really Mindy and her family didnt
either but the rest did.
Finally I had to take Harmony home. He lives close to the fair but I wanted to say goodbye to him
alone. I told him I had a wonderful time and I wished he could go back with us. Really we said wed
kidnap him and we should have done it! Ok not really.
I kissed Harmony we had a nice long kiss. Then we hugged. It was weird and I know Harmony will read
this so I hope he wont get mad. Really I know he wont. But I started thinking about the guys I dated.
Jules was my first and second BF in middle school and I straight up didnt know what I was doing. He
was totally controlling. Then I dated Herbie who was a great boyfriend hes very sweet and talented
and we were in a coven together. I broke up with him cuz I wanted to date other guys which I did.
Fernando wasnt ever really my boyfriend but he acted like he was and he was always telling me what
to do. If he wasnt so controlling hed be cool. But I didnt have a real boyfriend again until Timmy and
that was like four years later. Hes really cool we did protests together but he pressured me too much.
It was like I had an epiphany. All at once I realized I do not want a sother whos controlling! I want to be
in control of my own life. I will give til it hurts but only if he gives back too. So then I started crying I
couldnt help it. But Harmony just held me.
We kissed which was really nice hes a great kisser even though his mustache tickles. His beard didnt
tickle me but his mustache did I dont know why. He said he would really miss me and I said Id really
miss him.
But I have to figure things out. Harmonys in Texas hes been there for years and Im going back to
California and Ive been there all my life. I know I cant date somebody that far thats why we said it was
just for vacation. I really dont know how Id feel if he finally moved to California. But right now I have to
do whats best for me right now.
I will always love Harmony. But right now Berkeley is waiting for me to come home. Berkeley is the best
thing I have for me right now cept of course my family and friends. I dont know how long well be
together or what will happen. But right now I have to live for myself.
Copyright 2010 by The Loveshade Family
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Lorien
Loveshade
Harmony got on
his knees and I
was like OMG is
he going to
propose to me?
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I really wanted to
ride Harmony
piggyback..
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I asked
Harmony about
Jane but he
said they arent
sothers theyre
just good
friends.
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I know what u
want to know. Did
we sleep together?
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I said I'm not
ready to give up
my virginity, but...
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Harmony gave me
little kissies
everywhere.
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Harmony asked if
he could do what?
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We played
musical showers.
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Consider the
bathroom door
locked and don't
bother us
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We went to a
Ren Fair.
Would u like to be
introduced as the
girl who eats her
boyfriends
sausage in public?
I started
thinking about
the guys I dated.
I have to do whats
best for me right
now.